[Nessinoo]

My first post on here... I've suffered on and off with depression since my early 20's, and have been taking anti-depressants now for just over 3 years. The anti-depressants work, I don't feel low or suicidal, but I just don't feel in control at the moment...

I have SO many conflicting roles. I am a single mum of 3 girls, 2 of which are teenagers.
I am an occupational therapist working in older peoples mental health,
I am a diabetic,
plus, of course, I am a housewife, friend (of sorts) and girlfriend (boyfriend lives approx 10 miles away)

At present I don't feel I'm doing any of the above well... My diabetes is out of control, which then makes me ill so I'm not at work as often as I should be.
At work things are awful - none of the therapy staff are happy with all the changes going on and the lack of direction - which really doesn't help my mental and physical health. Plus my daughters see me at home a lot and think they can just skip school when they 'have a headache' etc. And, I admit it, when I'm feeling really low I let them stay off school - WHICH MAKES ME A REALLY BAD MOTHER.
Plus the house is a mess and I just don't seem to have the time, energy or inclination to do anything about it. I don't have the energy, either to ask the girls to help, even though if they don't help out they get no pocket money. I feel my apathy and lack of motivation is rubbing off on them - which makes me feel awful.

I know I need to be more3 organised, but I really don't know where to start...... Makes me want to curl up in a corner and come out when it's all sorted, and I know that ain't gonna happen...

I don't know where to start.... HELP!

[Christina86]

One thing at a time.

Do you have the finances to hire help to clean? Or sit down with your daughters, and get them to pitch in for chores to get the house clean?

You're on antidepressants, are you seeing a therapist? Sometimes talk therapy works more than antidepressants..