[capricorn1975]

I've been on pc for 2 years, and it's funny because I've never really told "my story"

well, here goes....

I am one of 3 children.... I have an older brother and a younger sister... I had trouble in school and had few friends. I never really "fit in"

I have had depression and an anxiety disorder since i was very young.... back then mental illness wasn't as understood as it is today. We knew there was something wrong, but I couldn't put my finger on it.

I got my first job at 19, and had difficulty making it to work because of my illness, and had to quit after 7 months.
i tried to work again 2 years later with the same results.

I finally applied for disability in 1998 and was accepted a year later.

I had a breakdown in 2005 and was incapacatated for 6 months.

After the breakdown, the dr. put me on potent tranquilizers (stelazine) and it helped me a lot. After 31 years i finally felt "normal".... very calm and able to function.

Thanks to my supportive family and my wonderful friends on PC.... it wouldn't have been possible without you!!!

[madisgram]

cap, it took courage for you to reach out to us.i know it was difficult for you to reach out but you took courage "by the horns" and did it!!! thank you so much for trusting us enough to do it. that's a lot of what this wonderful site-pc-offers us, hope, friendship, caring for each other. i hope you'll share more when you feel comfortable doing so. we are always here for you, my friend.

[shezbut]

capricorn1975

That took a lot of courage, to share a little bit of your past. I hope that it wasn't very uncomfortable or painful for you to do. In my experience, it takes little bits here and there to gain confidence in sharing certain aspects of oneself. Over time, I've become a lot more comfortable than I used to be.

There are still very intimate pieces of myself that no one ever sees or hears about. Perhaps someday I will post from that side of myself, instead of keeping it stuffed inside of me. It takes time.