[googley]

I feel so sad and depressed. I've been crying all day. I cried through T session. I got laid off this morning from my job. And can't see T any more. Maybe after I get a new job. But I don't know when that will be. She says that I need to remember that she is still there. Even though we can't see each other right now. But it just seems so hard. I miss her so much already. I'm trying to stay positive that I will be able to find another job soon, but it is so hard.

[Elana05]

(((Googley)))

Where else can you find support? Are there any free group therapy meetings in your area? Or communities/groups for those suffering from depression? I'm so sorry this happened. Hang in there. Be gentle with yourself right now. Is there any way you could ask your parents for some money? My parents have not been helpful with my depression at all, as my mom said - "medication and therapy are just a crutch." But somehow I have been able to get some money for it from my dad... maybe if they said no in the past... what if you ask again?

Hugs dear one...

[mudgey]

I have a job and insurance and still can't afford therapy for myself or my kid. I've closed down two business- one of which I was 8 months pregnant and no insurance the day the business shut down. I was laid off at the beginning of 2009. It takes time for it to all come back. I had to wait tables for a year- and just had to pick it back up- to help pay the bills and keep my shelter. I try to find counselors that will work on a sliding scale, or maybe go thru a church if you are in to that. You might find some free help there until you can get back on your feet.

[MoAnamCara]

googley - im so sorry.

hugs to you.

take care.

[Sunna]

(((Googley)))

It's hard not to cry when such a drastic change occurs. And it's hard to stay positive. Don't push yourself right away. Cry for a while, cry it out. But don't cry more because there there is nothing else to do. There is a lot of things to do, and they could be as good as seeing a therapist for your well being.

I imagine your therapist have left you with some tools of dealing with your thoughts and emotions. Yes, it'll harder without seeing her in person, but what tools you have, use them. And yes, she is still there lending you strength, even though you can't be in her office. Just feel it. It's very subtle.

And we are here. And don't you know we are you, and you are us?
Please believe this. Your Therapist is not the only person in this world who can and would want to help you with your depression. You do not know where you may find these people. Though there is one place they are not, and that is in your bedroom where you are crying and so lonely.

And then, of course, there is that very old, almost forgotten cure for depression:love. Love others. Now that you, unfortunately, have the extra time, you can make a gift of it to someone else. Help someone, there is a lot of people for whom you, with your broken halo and sad face could be an angel. It'd wouldn't be COMPARISON that helps, not thinking "he/she is so much worse than me", no, not all. It is COMPASSION. Compassion is a great salve. When you open up your heart and gift your love to other people, or even animals it somehow helps you. It isn't even their gratitude. It is the giving itself.

Part of depression's danger is that it traps you with your sadness. It isolates you. But your heart has power to break that isolation. It just needs an opportunity.

Give your heart a chance?

[online user]

WOW!, Sunna, what great advice. I can't add anything to that, except to say, I think Sunna is right. You will find other resources to help you with your depression. I like Burns, "Feeling Good Handbook", which gives you exercises to work through yourself. (OK, so I did come up with one more suggestion!) But I can also extend my sympathy and empathy for you. Hugs!

[justfloating]

((((((((((googley))))))))))

[A2FMUrs]

Googley
All suggestions are right on as I read the posts...sometimes its hard just to take that first step...but its a step worth taking...fight back...there are reasons why each of us are here..we are all interconnected. Love that quote by Ben OKri (justfloating)!
Just by posting..you are connecting and staying opened...keep open!

[Rohag]

Hi, Googley. I read your post yesterday but was too tired to reply. Disturbing things happen all the time, but when they happen to a friend they strike close to home. I'm so sorry. Job and therapist (personalized therapy) -- poof. That's double hard.

Here's hoping your reserves will carry you through until a new wave of encouragement arrives.

[turquoisesea]

(((((googley))))))

Oh I'm so sorry about your job! and I really hope you can find a new one relatively soon. I'm glad your T is supportive, and I hope you can see T soon. Do you have family members who can help you with this, or any way of making some temporary money?

Thinking of you

(((((googley)))))

I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your job. I hope things turn around for you quickly.

[puddles120710]

Going through a layoff is rough business. I have been through 3 in my life. This is not the time to stop therapy. I know not having insurance is a major stressor and that it causes of a lot of missed medical and therapy opportunities. One resource that I did recently learn about is 211. It is like calling 411 for a phone number- only this resource will provide you with crisis providers in your area that specialize in what you are going through right now. They will be able to provide you with any councelors that can help for free or at a significantly reduced cost (one friend of mine was only paying $5.00 per session in our area). The resources that they provide are specific to your home town. Another resource is the county human resource center. If your area has crisis programs that aide people in getting medications and therapy, they will know about it. Some churches also have therapists (not necessarily clergy) that work with the community free of charge. It is a start. Good luck. Please stay in touch. PC has awsome support.