[EvilManiac]

I feel so lost and hopeless. I've been battling with my depression for about 7 years now. I've been through a lot of medications, psychotherapy and even ECT. Not much of it helped. I'm beginning to lose hope that I'll ever get better. I'm a college student. I feel like I just go through the motions everyday. I keep asking myself is this all there is to my life. Its so meaningless and repetitive. I just can't seem to find something that I'm passionate about and will pull me out. Can any one help me or offer some advice. I'm so confused. I feel like I lost my drive to live my life...

[Rohag]

Hello, EvilManiac! I'm glad you've posted.

For me, depression drains almost all the passion out of everything. Maintaining much less pursuing what were interests is a struggle.

Feel free to ignore this question, but I hope it might get us working in a useful direction: Why are you in college? What moved you to go through the admissions process and enroll?

[Leed]

Hi "Maniac" ~ Goodness, are you sure your user name describes you? LOL

Anyway -- I have felt like that before. And my advice to you is to tell your doctor that your antidepressant is NOT WORKING. Many of them just don't do the job for some people. If you are on one, which I assume you are -- it's obviously not doing the trick!! Or you possibly have grown immune to it -- after we've been on one for a length of time, we get accustomed to it, and it loses it's effectiveness. So PLEASE tell him that you need a change -- you should NOT be feeling like this when on an antidepressant.

I was on Prozac for quite some time, and all of a sudden I felt like I was in the darkest pit of despair. It was like it happened overnight, but I know it didn't -- it came on slowly -- I just happened to realize it all at once. I told my doctor, and he switched me to a different antidepressant. I felt MUCH improved and things started looking brighter -- I had a will to live again! So talk to your doctor. This is definitely important. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[EvilManiac]

Rohag
Why are you in college? What moved you to go through the admissions process and enroll?

Basically my options are work or college. I decided on college because I know I would not be able to do manual labor for 8 hours a day. So its the lesser of two evils... well when I wasn't depressed as much like last year I did enjoy school somewhat.

Leed
Anti-depressants don't seem to do the trick for me as they have for. I've been on about 5 different ones, and sometimes two different antidepressants. Perhaps, though, you are right and I should talk to my doctor.

[Umbral_Seraph]

I too am in college and have medication resistence issues; I know exactly what that hopelessness feels like.
I frequently feel more mechanical than anything else...

Are you in any sort of therapy? Most people do the best when they are on a medication and in therapy. CBT happened to not help me, so I started biofeedback and self-hypnosis, which is working better.

Its very frustrating that finding what works best is all trial and error.

[EvilManiac]

I'm glad to know theirs others going through the same thing as me. Yes I'm currently in therapy but I don't know how much its helping. I had stopped therapy for a while and now that I'm going downhill I thought I should give it another go.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Hang in there!