[Yack]

So I am primarily on here for PtSD but lately I've been under a lot of stress. In 2006 I was barely functional. I went on the finish grad school, move out, get engaged, got a job as a therapist, etc.

This is my story of the past 3 years. I need feedback. I am not the type to complain but I need advice on how to cope with all this.

In 2009 my fiance left me and I was forced to handle expenses on my own. I was ok for a while. About a year ago things got hairy with my job (too much stress) so I started looking elsewhere. I met someone else and was about to get engaged again over the summer. My significant other had to have emergency surgery and everything was put off. Then my uncle died suddenly.

I found myself panicking. I started to get ill and was getting horrible headaches. I very hastily took another job and was fired 3 weeks later because I found out I might have lupus. My boyfriend left me. One month later my dog (who was 13) died.

Fast forward to now. I was unemployed for 4 months and denied unemployment. I found another job and started a month ago. Things were going fine until I had a medical emergency a week ago. I was sent home from work several times over the past week but I was told I will be ok. During the course of this week, I found out I lost my unemployment appeal and then the next day my credit card company slashed my credit limit leaving me with no credit. I was also rejected from a PhD program.

Even writing this, it's a lot. If you can all help me get some perspective I'd appreciate it.

[Rohag]

Wow, Yack. You've really been through it these past three years.

First, what resources do you have to address your health problems? Can you get help for that?

[Charlie_J]

Yack, please don't despair. I know, it's easier said than done.

While I haven't been in your exact circumstances, I know the feeling of having several massive things happen all at once, and how much of a toll it is on your health. It's difficult to see any light.

Earlier, I was thinking along the exact same lines you are, and I found myself wondering how much of a bad slant was coming from my depressed state of mind. I had a totally random good thought, which I've just sat here for the last hour trying to remember, but it escapes me now. It was something really stupid, yet true. Like feeling better because at least I can still tie my shoelaces.

The point is, we're resilient. The good things will come back, because no matter what it does, your depression can't keep it up forever. Bad things can't keep happening forever, and so you won't always be held down by them.

Keep going, keep plodding on. Eventually it will ease. This place is wonderful for helping while you're struggling.

[(JD)]

I'm so sorry...things all seem to be connected and domino effect ruins anything good..

Yeah, if you have bad credit nowdays, the university's can deny you entrance even into their programs!

But,... the PhD program is hugely stressful...so waiting on that until your stable (life, job etc) is a good idea anyway.

It sounds like you're trying to find someone to marry to help feel good about life...and you know doll, that doesn't work.

With all the nobody's getting unemployment benefits, grrrr on them for denying you...

BUT all is not lost... this is not a permanent situation... yeah it feels like it...

keep on trying... you've pushed through so much and done more than you thought you could back when, you know?