[HaybeeHalo]

I got threapy, meds, and the whole nine yards. Once again, it doesn't help my depression or anxiety. My family has besically given up on me. If I say anything, all they say is 'maybe we should call someone to come take you to a place where they can help you' meaning, once of those messed up mental places. I refuse to go. I'm 18, therefore an adult so it's not like they can force me. My mom and little sister keep telling me I need to get a job and move out, like they dont want me around. I havent finished high school yet. I have no social skills, for I have kept myself sheltered since I was fifteen. I have no friends except for a couple, but I don't feel like they can understand what's going on. People are tired of me. My mom and sister are tired of me just wasting up space with my fatass. I'm so close to my breaking point, and i'm almost excited to just end it all. I'm venting right now, but damn these thoughts are becoming oh so tempting. I'm not going to call a suicide line, i'm not gonna talk to any more therapists. I'm just so done. All that people do in this world is work there whole lifes. Where's any fun or peace in that. Being stressed all the time, living with messed economy. There is absolutly no solace in this world. There's no such thing as love, it ALWAYS ends in heartache. It may seem like i'm just being negative, but it's true. Nothing can change my mind on that. I'm so close...

Hey HaybeeHalo,
Im so sorry that you had to go through all this , in some ways I can relate to your live. I know how this feels , and to be honest Ive been close enough to taking my own life plenty of times but there is always something to hang on for , how small it may seem. I'm praying and thinking for you many for you . And if you need to talk to vent or whatever you want. please contact me, anyday, no matter what.
I want to help and im here for you

[Can't Stop Crying]

It sounds like your family is concerned about you, not that they want to get rid of you...Although I know it can feel like that. If you were doing exactly what you wanted right now, what would it be? Finishing high school? working? moving out?

Think of where you'd like to be and then work on a plan to get there. I know it's tough and depression is overwhelming, the depression will not retreat until you actively fight it.

Hope this helps. I'm thinking of you!

[HaybeeHalo]

Thank you to both of you. A little update: I'm alright now. I talked with my mom. I know she cares about me, but this anxiety and depression basically control my life. She told me when I start to have a breakdown, i'm not in my right state of mind and that all she can do is try to comfort me. I'm doing my best to hang in there.

[Patriciann]

I'm glad you are doing better and were able to talk to your mom. Gentle ((hugs)) of comfort to you.