[Snowkitten]

Something inside has snapped, its like I'm not connected to anyone or anything... anymore. None of this seems real,nothing seems to matter, I know it should and thats what scares me. Something inside has died and I can't hide it, I just can't fake it. This sense of impending disaster is so real I am wondering around an empty shell going through the motions... making things worse as I go.
I can't think straight anymore, I can't stop the pain, I can't be of help to anyone
There just doesn't seem to be any way out.

[Can't Stop Crying]

I understand the battle with depression, I have felt those same feelings
Do you have a therapist?

[Snowkitten]

Hi

I don't know, I used to see Psych Dr but after being discharged from Crisis Team on 7th Feb I have been told I need to wait to be allocated a Care Co-ordinator and haven't heard anything since.
Oops more tears, sorry.

[Rohag]

Hello, Snowkitten! Are the feelings of something snapping or dying inside new, or were you dealing with them earlier when you were with the Crisis Team?

If you have the energy, contact those folks and remind them you exist and still need help.

Keep posting, and post as much as you need.

[Maria38Divine]

Hi Snowkitten, I totally understand what you're going through. Although I've been feeling better lately, I still feel so disconnected from the cares of life - nothing matters. It just doesn't make sense. I feel okay in that the fogginess in my mind isn't so bad, but that reconnection with life and all it's cares just hasn't happened yet. It's like you're simply existing, a shell of a person. BUT, I really hope things improve for you. It'll take time though with the right kind of support. Take one day at a time, acknowledge the small successes/improvements when they happen and keep looking forward.

Hugs for you

[Snowkitten]

Thank you xxxxxx

I was feeling like that when I was under CT and was also in hospital for 72 hrs.
Sorry just don't have words.

[lavieenrose]

I'm having a similar experience, Snowkitten. Sorry that you're going through this. It's miserable. A few months ago, at an emergency room, a crisis worker referred me for outreach services. I finally called today, since I was never contacted. I was told "We don't accept your insurance. The referral never went through". I really hope that things improve for you.

[Snowkitten]

Oh no, thats not good sorry to hear that. That must be so tough, is there any way you can get a referral to someone who does accept your insurance?
Sending loads of hugs to you, as you said its miserable feeling like this, thinking of you and hoping things improve for you really soon too.

Hugs
Snow x

Originally Posted by lavieenrose

I'm having a similar experience, Snowkitten. Sorry that you're going through this. It's miserable. A few months ago, at an emergency room, a crisis worker referred me for outreach services. I finally called today, since I was never contacted. I was told "We don't accept your insurance. The referral never went through". I really hope that things improve for you.

[online user]

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time. It would be good to follow up on your care--sometimes things fall through the cracks.

I've had feelings like that too, sometimes--comes with the depression. A "numbness" is the way I think of it. Like things are unreal--I don't feel "normal". Not a great feeling--so I hope your mood does improve soon!

[I Want Change]

hang in there i really hope things get better

[turquoisesea]

((((SnowKitten)))) I hate the feeling of numbness too *hugs* I just hope you can contact someone who can help

[Snowkitten]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

((((SnowKitten)))) I hate the feeling of numbness too *hugs* I just hope you can contact someone who can help

Thanks, still struggling... something has broken somewhere... and I can't seem to piece it together. Meanwhile problems keep arising and I am powerless to stop them or do anything towards fixing them.
Everyday I struggle with whether to ring centre or not, but the fact that I can't answer when they ask what I want them to do.... ALWAYS stops me so I am still trapped like this!

[LostInThought92]

I have been there. The pain will stop, it just takes time and strength. We all have the strength to keep moving on it's just about choice. Focus on yourself and believe you are worth it and believe you can be of help to someone. There is always a way out and that way is through support from us and confidence in yourself. Just never give up, it does get better.