[thea_kronborg]

Well, I took out the bottle of Citalopram that was sitting in my drawer for 6 months, and took one. There is about 3 weeks of pills in it, and apparently I have two refills. So that is plenty of time to find a therapist.

I feel like I should bow to the school of thought that says that mindfulness is all you need. And I've been trying that, and anti-anxiety techniques, but i can't screw up another job with my stupid issues. I just can't let that happen.

[thea_kronborg]

I don't even know why I am upset right now. I went on a job interview that I thought would be one thing but turned out to be something else and one of the two guys didn't much like me. Why should I even care?

[Rapunzel]

Thea, don't wait for your meds to run out to find a therapist, ok? Best practice is therapy and meds together. Mindfulness is great, but it isn't a complete solution. Meds won't fix the root of the problem, but they will make it easier for you to cope until you are able to tackle those roots.

I didn't want to need meds either, but I started taking them to that I could function better in my work (I'm a therapist), and be able to find and keep a job, as well as deal with all the stuff going on in my life lately.

[online user]

Rapunzel may be right: a combination of things may help you the most. I'd keep up with the mindfulness (I want to do more of that myself) and meds. But maybe try a therapist too. You may not like the first one you try, so it may take some time to be sure you have a good fit. That's probably your best hope for a long-term, peaceful solution and happiness.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by thea_kronborg

I don't even know why I am upset right now. I went on a job interview that I thought would be one thing but turned out to be something else and one of the two guys didn't much like me. Why should I even care?

Speaking only for myself, even if it turns out to be a job I really don't want, any type of formal or informal rejection deeply hurts me. No, it's not logical, but it's stamped on my psyche.

Here's wishing you work you'll actually enjoy.

[lavieenrose]

I've been off anti-depressants for several years, as they didn't seem to work, and have slid into such a deep depression since then, that I'm thinking hard about meds again. I also wanted to "cure" myself with meditation, cognitive approaches, healthy lifestyle, etc., but now even a partial effect from anti-depressants sounds mighty good to me. Though, I'm ambivalent and still sitting on the fence. I agree with Rohag that any type of rejection can be very painful. I get very obsessed and set back by that. It can be necessary (for me too) to take a multi-pronged approach. Best wishes.

[online user]

Stopped back on your thread to see how things were going. I do agree with the others--if you are especially vunerable, ANY rejection, even of something you didn't want, can be terribly painful. Hope things are going better!