[afterrain]

Who can I trust? Can I really trust people who I tell, what is going on with me? Are they going to tell other people, what I say them? Do they start thinking differently of me? Are they really there for me? Will they be there for me, when I need them? All these questions come to me when I think about telling someone about me being depressed. Why is it hard to trust in people, when being depressed?

On Tuesday around 8:30pm, I wrote “Why me?” on another site. Right after I post that, I got a text from a friend that I have not talk to in a week. At first, I was very happy to hear from my friend. He was asking me if I was okay and that I can tell him anything. What I say will stay between us and he will not say anything to anyone. So I was think to myself okay, I’ll tell him what going with me and how I’m feeling. I tell him everything and that I was depressed. Then he started asking me questions, like why? He did not want me to do anything stupid. I told him that I will not do anything stupid. I answered his entire questions honestly. He said that he will always be there for me. I said thank you to him, for being there for me when he didn’t have to. That he being there means a lot to me.

But when I was talking to him the hold time, I was think why is he talking to me now. I thought he was mad at me. We do not talk that much. And the last thing that my friend said to me before this text was, “I have been very very busy.” That was his answer for him not talking to me. It was very odd when he text me. I know that he has a lot of thing going on and he has his own problems to deal with. I can’t help thinking why? Was he really being a friend or not? It’s not like he is talking to me now. Can I trust in him, that he will keep his word?

What should I make out of all this?

[Leed]

Does it really matter that much? I think you can trust him, but is it so bad if people know that you're depressed? There isn't a 'stigma' attached to being depressed. I don't care what anyone knows about me. My life is an open book. If people know everything about me, they can't talk behind my back. LOL

If there is something that you don't want people to know, then don't tell anyone but your therapist. People are funny ~ even your most trusted friend can make a "mistake" and blurt something out. So don't tell your deepest secrets -- only tell your therapist. That way you can't get hurt.

I don't know if you can trust your friend or not. I hope so. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee