[whenwillitend]

Does anyone ever get like this? I'm doing pretty good right now, but sometimes, out of the blue, I get this feeling like, it would be so much easier to just be dead. Then I wouldn't have to deal with anything anymore. BUT, those feelings are not in a truly suicidal way, just like I would think "Hmm, I wonder if I should order a pizza for dinner." It confuses me. I do have a lot going on right now, but so far I'm handling it quite well. I don't feel depressed, yet sometimes, very suddenly, I feel suicidal, like giving up, and then it passes, just like that. Very quickly.

Does that make sense to anyone?

[dragonfly2]

I actually had that happen a few weeks ago. I was in my bathroom getting ready for bed, not depressed at all really, when out of the blue I started thinking about just taking all my pills. I agree, it is very confusing. When it happens, I try to sort of step aside from it for a moment and sort of think..."hmmm...well that's interesting"...and then I move on.

[buttrfli42481]

Fleeting thoughts. I get them all the time. It is when they start to become more frequent that I get worried, because I know that I am heading down hill very fast. Try not to dwell on them, tell them to stop or go away. Try thinking of something positive right when you are having the suicidal thoughts. It is hard at first but gets easier with practice. I hope this helps a bit.

[cantstopcrying]

I think a lot of people have those fleeting thoughts. Sometimes things just overwhelm us and you think you'd be better of dead without having a formed plan or desire.

[siljie]

Happens to me quite a bit, even when I'm in a decent mood and having a nice day. I think it's a pretty common thing. To me it's sort of just a random urge--like if I'm riding by a bridge I have the urge to throw a cellphone out the window?? Kind of like that with random thoughts of suicide, but as soon as I walk away from whatever is tempting me then it's good.

[kaliope]

I have been doing very well yet last month i got triggered and was contemplating the meaning of my life and could find no reason for it. I wasnt suicidal or hopeless but in talking to my T i was upset in expressing that I had no meaning in my life, no reason to live. i was crying and distraught. he scheduled me a followup appt thinking i was suicidal. i wasnt suicidal, i just wanted to be dead. i want to be dead a lot. no matter how good i am doing i want to be dead. i am tired, i have been thru a lot. im exhaused. im doing good now but i would really rather not be here so those thoughts do run thru my head even though i have moved past being suicidal. i just let them pass.

[sunsetsunrise]

happens to me. I never know when it is going to happen. I have a website I can go to and honestly talk about my feelings re this. I know I will never make an attempt. But I do beg to be taken..... in my sleep. I am feeling this way now. I turned 60 today. All alone. And I am physically ill so for my birthday I could only eat fermented bean broth aka miso. With nothing in it. The aloneness is too much sometimes. Especially on the 60th birthday with no support or good food. And in physical pain. Sorry to be such a downer. Usually try to not post here

[whenwillitend]

Originally Posted by cantstopcrying

I think a lot of people have those fleeting thoughts. Sometimes things just overwhelm us and you think you'd be better of dead without having a formed plan or desire.

That's exactly it!

Thank you everyone for your replies! It's good to know I'm not the only one who experiences this.