[Overcastbutclearing]

I am very sad today.
My head is bouncing all over the place. I feel like acting out my anger and hurt but am trying to stay strong and not give into the impulses.
But, still very sad. Heart is broken.
I know sometimes in life you have to let go at times to grow and be challenged. But, today, it feels like I let go of a soul that was alive finally.
Anyway....

It's very hard to let go when you have finally touch "love in all the purety of the word " inside of you. It is so sad. All you know is that it does exist and it is there. Will you ever touch it again? Maybe. Only if you live longer will you know.

One thing I'm absolutly sure about SJ , IT DOES EXIST and I think that you finally know it too.

Take care sweet one!

[hillbunnyb]

Sometimes I put on music and sing (howl) along, getting so overwhelmed with sad taht I'm more sobbing than singing, I dunnno, it's kinda like trying to sing at my own funeral or something, but it gets me breathing, tears release toxins, and crying releases endorphins. So, though its an emotionally exhausting exersize for me, it brings a kind of cleansing relief.
Whatever works, ya know? Take care.

[Lexicon78]

I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much right now. I'm not exactly doing that great either, so I feel for you. Anyways, hang in there and stay strong.