[ssaturn]

I'm not even sad.
I'm just empty, hollow...like anything will pass through me and I won't feel it.
I feel numb, like I don't have any emotions. Sometimes a few tears drop from my eyes for no reason (I'm not watching anything sad, I'm not in pain).
These days I can't sleep soundly so I tried staying up and writing in a journal but I can't do that because I can't put in to words what I'm going through.

I'm sorry I just feel so empty after being really happy for a while (I have bipolar disorder) and I'm scared that this might be me going into depression again...

[Mediator]

You re not lonely, I read your post which is from your words.
try to paint how are you if you can not put it in words.
try to sing how are you if you can not paint it by colours
try to write how are you by a poem if you miss your colours
and if you miss a rhyme send me a message I will send you my rhyme.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by ssaturn

...I just feel so empty after being really happy for a while (I have bipolar disorder) and I'm scared that this might be me going into depression again...

Ssaturn, what are your historical patterns like? Has this happened in the past: you experience a period of "emptiness" and then move into depression? If on the basis of past experience you know you are entering a depressive episode, then you can use that knowledge to prepare and alert your doctors/caregivers.

Originally Posted by ssaturn

I'm not even sad.
I'm just empty, hollow...

Emptiness rather than outright sadness is my primary experience of depression.

Wishing you the best, Ssaturn!