[Alg99]

Hi.
I am currently feeling sooo low. When I joined this forum i posted that the GP was going to get me some talking therapy - no joy of a date yet meanwhile after a couple of good weeks i have taken a turn for the worse - i am getting a bit concerned as I am now struggling at work, and snapping at everybody. in desparation went back to the GP last week and he upped my meds (Citalopram) Now on top of it all I am feeling really sick.
Sorry if this sounds like a winge - but it really seems to help to be able to share things..
I have no-body here - i do speak to by hubby sometimes and he does understand, but I need him to be able to keep going while I am feeling like this.
I really dont like the thought of filling my body with more chemicals - in the past I have just thrown them away but I realise afterwards that that makes things so much worse.
I hate have things playing with my mind - I really would like a simple quiet world where I do not have to be responsible.
I have promised myself to try to 'follow the path' this time around, hoping that there will be one out of the darkness... i have written it down on notes all over the place so that I can remember.
Wish me luck as this struggle is getting impossible.

Hello, Alg99. Sorry you are feeling low. Perhaps your GP might refer you to a psychologist or other authorized professional for a psychological assessment? I have found the specialists do a better job of it.

Good luck with getting to see a therapist.

[Rohag]

Hello, Alg99! Given

• your turn for the worse,
• your feeling really sick, and
• your history of a type of SI,

I feel it's important to try to get everything out with the GP and press for speedier help. This is more serious than the professionals currently think.

Please advocate for yourself or find someone who can advocate for you.

[kaliope]

Alg99
I have always been very anti-med. Tried so many ways to get better on my own. my depressions reached suicidal levels. It finally reached the point I knew I was going to wind up dead. I never thought it was possible to see the light again. Never. Lived in a very deep dark world. I finally agreed I would go the medication route for two years. Well here it is 4 years later and I am still on meds. Life has changed so tremendously for the better that I choose to stay on meds. I still dont like them, but to not go back where I was they are so worth it.

[Alg99]

Cheers all - thanks for the support. Am hanging on in there...