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LadyDragus · Dec 20, 2005, 10:54 PM

I want to cut so badly right now..
WIth all that is going on tonite I just do not want to live anymore...

I am so scared at what is going to happen.. I am so scared, that I will lose my child.. I cant handle this not with me being preganant..

I am so stressed right now I could ...

(JD) · Dec 21, 2005, 12:13 AM

breathe (((((((((((((((dragon)))))))))))))))))) You can get through all this... you will be on the other side of it all one day..... I'm sorry you are suffering... please take care of yourself... don't harm yourself... you are worthwhile!

Dec 21, 2005, 12:36 AM

ladydragus, you were one of othe very first people to welcome me here. it seems like a lifetime ago. i care for your very much and i don't want you to hurt yourself. please, please continue to post and let's all help carry your load. xoxoxo pat

CedarS · Dec 21, 2005, 12:40 AM

Let us know how we can help. Can we encourage you to call someone, a therapist or other helper?

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ozzie · Dec 21, 2005, 01:37 AM

(((((((((((Trish)))))))))))) I wish I could help but I'm in a bad place too. Just wanted to let you know I care.

EJ711 · Dec 21, 2005, 02:03 AM

I am so stressed right now I could go;

o make a ham sandwich
o go watch TV
o go read a book
o go listen to soothing music
o go for a long walk

Memorize this list.

You're in our hearts and prayers,

Jane

hillbunnyb · Dec 21, 2005, 02:42 AM

Dear Lady, sorry it's so intense right now. May I add throwing ice cubes against a wall, perhaps in the shower? Get the anger out safely, ok? Keep us posted please.

Mystry · Dec 21, 2005, 04:16 AM

I give all the strength I have to you Lady Dragus...

Mystry

Lexicon78 · Dec 21, 2005, 06:12 AM

LadyDragus, please hang in there. I am here for you...each step of the way. I want to walk with you in the darkness. I am there with you, holding your hand, wiping your tears, protecting you. Please don't cut. Don't let this thing beat you! You can survive...and fly to that heavenly place in your heart! And I am with you.

I could not bear it if anything happened to you! It would crush me to no end! Please hang in there!

LadyDragus · Dec 21, 2005, 12:50 PM

you are all my saving grace and made me cry tears of happinees today.

I am awating a phone call from my attorney if I can ever get ahold of her.. no one is in teh offce today so they may all be in court ? Not sure.
I will def keepyou all posted.

I have found out that he may not have a leg to stand on, but nto sure.. Since we were not married and in my first divorce decree is states legal custody be given to the mother (Patricia M. Bell) so it has alredy been decieded once so I am not sure what to do..

I am still very scared, have fmaily coming up to stay with me so I wont do anything and I have Jessica and Bree I have to think about and the new baby on the way..

I was not in a good place and for some part still am not, but all of your wrods are very encorging to me right now.

Lexicon78 · Dec 21, 2005, 05:15 PM

We all love you LadyDragus! Hang in there! You are in my deepest thoughts and prayers!

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CedarS · Dec 22, 2005, 01:28 AM

Waiting sometimes seems to be one of the most stressful things to have to do. Glad you have family arriving soon to be with you during this.

Do you have healthy escapes you can use? Light reading, a fun novel? Chocolate? You deserve good stuff.

CedarS · Dec 22, 2005, 08:57 PM

How are you doin' today?

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LadyDragus · Dec 22, 2005, 10:43 PM

well I went to my attorney today and I have to do what the order says, but with modificatoins.. So I am not comeplety over this I do not like doing any of what the order says, and I am scared he will try to do more when/if we go to court..

He is such a lieing person I cant trust him or his family, they could do more to me?? This is what scares me to death..

I will keep you all updated ok

CedarS · Dec 22, 2005, 11:26 PM

Thank you for keeping us updated, sounds like a way challenging situation you are in. Are the modifications a good thing?

You deserve some bubble bath and treat time, hope you are able to corner some time just for you.

LadyDragus · Dec 23, 2005, 11:40 AM

the modifacations are for the best

Mystry · Dec 23, 2005, 03:07 PM

There isn't much I can offer in the way of support except that you are in my prayers...Take care Lady Dragus.

Mystry

CedarS · Dec 26, 2005, 03:14 PM

How is your wonderful self doing today?

SS8282 · Dec 26, 2005, 08:37 PM

(((((((((((lady))))))))))))) am thinking of you.

LadyDragus · Dec 27, 2005, 10:25 PM

thank you all so much..

this means a great deal to me..

jmo531 · Dec 27, 2005, 10:34 PM

(((((((((((((((((((((Lady)))))))))))))))))))))

Hang in there. not doing so well

Azalysa · Dec 28, 2005, 11:23 AM

Hi, Lady

I don't think we've met before but just wanted to add my prayers and support for what you're going through! Glad family will be coming to be with you!!