[TinkerLoop]

i just feel low some days im so empty yet others its like im to full but everyday the feelings just seem to get worse. Its getting so hard to deal with at the moment. I feel like im dragging my friends alone this emotional rollercoaster with me and it just doesnt seem fair but if i push the away thats not fair either im so confused. i'm real low today and i dont even know why. Everything is upsetting me i wish i knew what was going on with me. It's like im stuck inside sumone elses world and there's no getting outta it. <font color="purple"> </font>

[DaveyJones]

HI tinker,

I'm sorry you're so down--it can hurt SO bad. I hope that you start feeling better soon. When is your doctor's appointment? I know it seems useless, but please go, it's the only way out.

In the meantime, we're all here to help, so don't be afraid to use us!

DJ

[TinkerLoop]

i'm on waiting list have been for months now its feb 5th if psychiatrist decides to take me on. not that i really wanna go at all

[Overcastbutclearing]

((TINKER)))
I understand...really I do. It sucks to be like this.
Keep writing on the boards here...I swear it helps!

[Rhapsody]

Dear Tinker - ((((((( hugs )))))))

I can feel the despair and emotional pain in your post, for I have been where you are, heck I am there now - I just made me an appt for two weeks.
Is this appointment of yours in Feb. your first one of this kind or is it a repeat from past visit with a different counselor?

Check out the Anxiety section on here and look in the "New and In need of support" thread and read over the "The Script" that I posted on there - it was given to me by my counselor and it has done wonders for my wounded mind when nothing else could save me from the inner h*ll.

I will be thinking of you today... write and let me (us) know how you are doing through out the day - ok?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[TinkerLoop]

ok well back today.

not feeling great pretty awful be honest sick from oding. i try my hardest not to and to shift the depression but i just fail it seems. I just want to be 'normal' im sick of all this

Dx

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ((((((( HUGS )))))))

[TinkerLoop]

thankyou hun i really needed them yesterday i was scared i was going into liver failure today ive calmed a bit but now im getting images in my head and voices telling me im a failure useless etc. i just wanna hurt

[Rhapsody]

If I may ask? - was there any certain event that promoted these feelings to act up this time around? I ask this question, for I know my triggers and try my best to avoid them - but that is not always possible.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[TinkerLoop]

i really dont know but these images voices and thoughts are really doing my head in now i gonna call misfitamongstmisfit when mum gettings off the phone

[Rhapsody]

If I may ask? - Do you suffer from D.I.D. or have you ever?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[MisfitAmongstMisfits]

D,

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

Love ya lots
-Jodi BIG(((((((SQUEEZES))))))

[TinkerLoop]

aww now look im crying again mummy/jodi love ya to bits thanks. im sorry im falling apart so much.

and to rhapsody not as far as i know hun

i feel like the oding seems to be the only real thing about me i dunno if anyone can understand that.