[Mystry]

I feel lost here this is the upteenth time I've come here today and I've written posts and then thought better of it...I've tried writing poetry or songs and stories but nothing seems right I'm so dazed and confused about life that I can't see any hope...the only question that keeps going through my mind is what does it matter...I feel so useless and alone because there is nothing left to say except sorry...sorry...sorry...
is that guy trying to bang the bad thoughts out of his head or just banging his head for being a loser?...

[(JD)]

I do understand the writing and deleting because, what's the use? I have been doing the same thing with my T's message service taking forever to decide to call him, one in 5 times actually calling, then maybe 1 in 5 times leaving a message, but always deleting it and hanging up.

Maybe you are getting just enough hope to think that posting will help, and then second guess yourself. I'm glad you were able to leave this post, so we know what you're feeling.

I hope you are able to post more... it will help, honest.

[Lexicon78]

Mystry, I've often asked myself that very same question..."what does it matter?" Ya know, I can never seem to come up with a good enough answer. When I'm down, I'm really down and I say to myself "I don't matter" or "I'm not important" or things like that. But the truth is that you DO matter to many people, including me.

[Mystry]

you guys are the best and i often wonder where I'd be without the kindness you've shown me...well I do know I wouldn't be...thank you all so much...I'm just gushing...lol