My Reasons

So someone had asked why I returned to PsychCentral after leaving for two years. Well, I'm back because I'm depressed, anxious, and lonely. A lot has happened since I left. My husband came back from Iraq with mild PTSD, we endured months of unemployment, and we had a baby. The good news is that my husband is now on the right meds, he has a steady job, and because I had a baby...I had an easy way to get on meds myself. I am usually against going to the doctor, but when I'm pregnant...I go for my baby. At my 6 week checkup, I finally decided to ask for medical help after enduring ten years of depression and anxiety issues.

5 weeks ago, I was put on Zoloft. 2 weeks ago, I began to notice changes. I felt like I was becoming more and more anxious. I was able to clean the house and take care of the babies better than before the medicine, but every little thing made me stressed. I was short tempered, everything irritated me, and if something was out of order...I was a nutcase. I don't like to feel out of control, and trying to control every little thing is exhausting. Today, my doctor called in a prescription for hydroxzine to add to my zoloft. I'll pick it up tomorrow, and hopefully have a "less stressed out" weekend.

I'm back to vent. My husband reads my diaries, so I've quit writing in it. This site will be my new diary. Everyone needs to talk, to vent, to share. So, I'm back because I'm ready to get help. I'm tired of being this way. I'm finally ready to live. I just have to keep reminding myself not to let the anxiety take over. I hope I can stay positive and hopeful.

well back!!

you have taken some positive steps and you will succed in your efforts, all the best. keep us posted about the progress

nice to meet you.

i am not sure i can keep taking this hydroxzine. it knocked me on my butt! the anxiety is better but i'm a zombie....