why is everything falling apart???

uhhhh....last year was perfect. i had a bunch of friends, i was loving my new school, grades wer good, i do dance and i was succeeding, a boy liked me, everything was perfect! i dont no what happened, but everything has been falling apart in my life lately.. the studio i dance at closed down, now i go to a really crappy one where they keep putting me in lame classes. My grades have been horrible, i have been sooooooo stressed and my classes are soooo hard! it has been nearly impossible to keep up. the guy that liked me is completely over me and now doesn't want anything to do with me (i liked him and was looking forward to having a relationship...now i have no idea why he ignores me). My best friend joined debate and now she is only with her debate friends. when im with them, its like im not even there. she never talks to me ever! we used to do EVERYTHING together..now she ignores me. and if im lucky to talk to her for a minute, she doesnt ask me anything about myself, all she talks about is debate and her new friends and how happpy she is with them. As for my other friends, they have simply drifted away and no one really texts me or tries to make plans with me anymore. i basically have no friends anymore and no one to talk to. I dread lunch becuase i have no where to go. I try my best to look pretty everyday. I put on makeup, buy really cute clothes, check the mirror often and always look my best. i now wonder, for who? its like im invisible, no one cares about me anymore. Even my long distance bestfriends have seemed to forget about me. I used to love school..now i cant wait to go home. i have been soo depressed lately and have been feeling out of control because nothing has gone the way i've wanted it to. i feel so alone.

Hello & Welcome, Freespirit46!

"Alone" can be an awful feeling. I'm sorry the paths of your associates have led them away from you. School is a time of great changes; I hope time proves things haven't "fallen apart" but rather have just "reshuffled."

May you keep dancing. Joy has a way of finding you when you are not looking for it.

Aww honey, i no its so easy to feel isolated from the world when you feel depressed. i get the same, can be sat surrounded by people i love and my friends at college and feel totally alone huh? but it'll get better, have you spoken to your friends and told them you feel low and that you miss how close you were? maybe if you explained to them, they may realise that maybe they've taken your friendship for granted a bit. yes, keep dancing, do what you love, we all need that time we can embrace positively and be happy and have our "escape" time. pm me anytime honey. i hope things get better for you soon. keep looking to the sun! xxx

You are breaking my heart. You sound like me when I was younger. I was the same as you, I HATED lunch because everyone had somewhere to sit. I went through periods where I didn't know where I would sit. You're not invisible. There is probably some other guy liking you right now but he is too shy to talk to you. Welcome to PC I hope you stay awhile.