[siempre nada]

I am angry.
Experiencing this emotion for the first time in a long time. For god sakes this ***** isn't natural! why the Fu*k am I here if I have no one..I'm just pissed. I feel like sadness has been my only friend patting me on the shoulder cooing at me like a baby,:

"There, there, you just suck and that's all there is to it. Why don't you just go sit in a corner and wait to die? Nobody likes your sorry *** anyway, what the hell else are you gonna do? Ok yeah, there you go! start crying! Go sulk somewhere! Do what losers do! Good girl!"

I want to grab someone, anyone I see by the collar and shake them furiously screaming "LOOK at me dammnit! I EXIST! I HAVE EARS SO SPEAK TO ME! I HAVE A MOUTH, LISTEN! I HAVE A HEART,I CAN FEEL FOR YOU!! I HAVE A BRAIN I CAN UNDERSTAND!!"
No one will befriend me. I am alone. Just a freaking beast wandering the earth until I croak!! WHAT THE ***** AM I HERE FOR!!!!!!!

[alwaysrejoice]

Sharing your sorrow....

You have a way with words, very well put. You are not invisible.....

Be well. I wish I had more wisdom for you right now.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by siempre nada

I am angry.
Experiencing this emotion for the first time in a long time.

Then it might be a good thing you are experiencing anger. Please be safe and please keep posting, Siempre

[kaliope]

I am sorry you are feeling so alone right now. Have you tried the chat rooms here at PC? There are plenty of people to talk to there when feeling lonely. I am pretty much alone and spend lots of time here on PC reading other peoples posts. I see there are many others I can identify with and I dont feel so alone anymore. I found a paint class in my area and go paint on the weekend for something to do with other people so I am not so isolated all the time.

Hope you get to feeling better