[Constantinos]

Hello everyone,
My name is Constantinos and I am member of these forums, my belief is that all people deserve to fight and deserve to achieve what they desire. All humans can achieve this, you have this strength hiding in you - sometimes you need help to uncover this strength.

Before I continue; visiting a therapist is highly recommended by me, you need someone that you can trust, someone you can talk to freely.

I fully understand what you are feeling and I am here to help you though this difficult moment of yours, one baby step at a time and you'll be the winner.
Suicide is one of the most difficult thoughts that you will encounter, it’s a tough decision - part of yourself will want to suicide but part of yourself will hold back and think again - we all have these two parts.

You want to suicide because you feel helpless and hopeless - you feel that no one wants to help you, you feel that no one understands your thoughts, you feel that everyone is just so bored of you that they will be better without you. You feel so alone, so left out and so rejected.

You feel so bad that just don't want to fight anymore, you are thinking that suicide is the easy solution. "Why not take my life and get it over and done with? What's the point of fighting?”

You feel that you want things but you can't achieve them. You feel responsible and guilty.

You feel so exhausted that you just want to give up. “How long?” you ask.

I can understand all of your feelings; I want you to accept that you currently feeling that you want to take your life. At this difficult moment you need help from a professional, suicidal thoughts are dealt with the utmost seriousness - your therapist will be there to help you and so will I, I am here to assist you as simply put you don’t deserve to suicide - no one deserves suicide - it’s just that right now your pain is more than your coping resources but this will change - you’re already made progress by reading through this.

Do you want to fight and achieve?
Do you want to see light at the end of the tunnel?
Do you want to love and to be loved?
Are you a winner?
Are you willing to fight?

If you answer “yes” to any of the questions above then suicide is not for you, if you answer “no” I want you to go back and re-think each of the questions and I know you will be able to answer “yes” to at least one of the questions.

All tunnels have an exit, some tunnels are shorter and others are longer - all tunnels have an entrance and an exit. You will enter into the dark but you will see the end of the tunnel and you will see the light that you are looking for - the journey will be difficult, you will pass through many adventures, you will pass through life and death many times BUT the end result will be YOU getting out as the winner. You can do this, you can achieve this - you can fight of suicide - I know you can do this and deeply you also know that you can do this. There are no deadlines, there are no dates and no times - I just need you to flow with the time - I know and you know that you can do this.

Have faith in yourself, trust yourself, and love yourself.

I just want you to be patient, you may need some time to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel - this is absolutely fine, there is no predefined amount of time that you should be in the tunnel.

I just want you to concentrate to find a therapist, if you have one already I want you to make sure that you’re mentioning to your therapist whenever you have any suicide thoughts. Your therapist wants to know every time you have any suicidal thoughts so that your therapist can help you fight these suicidal thoughts.