I want to fast forward :(

I really wish some days I could just "fast forward" towards the goal of not feeling the depression and sadness I am feeling. The gut-wrenching pain and the hole in my heart from my relationship is leaving me feeling so helpless and in pain.

Today just isn't a good day and I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. Lately I feel like I'm "ok" then hours later I'm down. I suppose I should just quit thinking about her but I can't. sigh...

i understand, i think we all do and have thought the same. feel better soon! x

Thank you for your kind reply

Ive felt that way a few times, so I feel for you. When its all consuming its hard to think of a time when it does get better.

But if its any comfort, for some of those Ive fretted over in the past, I wouldnt give the time of day today! What a total waste of time ! hehe

Others I remember fondly and whatever misgivings I thought at the time , I just remember the good times we had....and thats a good feeling.

Yet others, Ive pondered if maybe things I /they could have done differently ..and would that have shaped a different future? But crucially, we couldnt at the time..so..

Past relationships, dont rule my thoughts in any shape or form today. Just the experience of being in those relationships has given me some idea of what I need/dont need ...and the knowing that even if I get hurt/knocked back ...it gets better with time

Hang in there ...even if slowly, it gets better (())