[supraguy17]

About four years ago I Moved away from my family and friends for a new job.Things seemed to be going great for the first two years because I had so many new things to discover. Once I really got settled in I noticed that I became very depressed and anxious about almost every aspect in my life. Everyday Things became huge hurtles.Soon I realized that I had a real problem on my hands and that I needed to reach out for help.I went to the doctor and expressed the issue's at hand and started taking medication.The problem was the medication did nothing for my anxiety and I thought perhaps it even made it worse so after taking this medication for a year I gained about 80 pounds and became even more depressed about the excess weight and became very angry with myself and everyone else around me for not understanding what I was going through.So far I have tried at least five different medications with various results never feeling "normal". Most days it seems like my anxiety is running my life I have walked out of meeting's and not showed up for interviews stopped going out with friends and then I get depressed cause I have no social life to speak of it is such a vicious cycle.But oddly enough I have been able to maintain a relationship for the last year with someone who deals with the same depression and anxiety issues that I do I am not sure If this is a good or bad thing as we both have some pretty bad days. But luckily she is very understanding and forgiving when I let my anxiety get the best of me. Relationships seem so hard when you have both anxiety and depression I often feel like a burden and live in constant fear that she will find someone better. Well there is a small sample of my own personal hell I live with everyday.Next week I am going to start seeing a therapist hopefully I can find better ways to deal with everyday life. I don't think I will ever feel "normal" but I want to see how close I can get.

[lynn P.]

Welcome to PC. I'm sorry you've been having a hard time. First of all you had quite the adjustment moving away from friends and family. Sounds like you're stuck in a vicious circle and I think the anxiety is at the core of your problems. Ask your therapist to focus on the anxiety and learn coping skills to deal with it. Since you struggle with anxiety, you back away from being the best you can be, which then makes you feel depressed. Get to the root which is the anxiety and things will likely improve. Good luck.

[supraguy17]

HI lynn,

Pc is a great place I feel like I am finally able to express how I feel and have people actually understand what I am talking about.I agree my anxiety has become a major issue in my life. I start seeing a T for the first time in a few weeks and I will certainly take your'e advice and make sure that it is the focus and work on ways that I can better cope with these issues.

[roads]

It sounds as if your relationship is a pretty good one, all in all. None is easy. I hope you'll discuss your fear that someone "better" is being sought with your new T. Have you talked with this person about your feelings? Any indication that the person is thinking of leaving? Or is this your anxiety getting at you?

Originally Posted by supraguy17

I don't think I will ever feel "normal" but I want to see how close I can get.

You & me both! And a whole lot of others on the board, I'm betting.

[supraguy17]

I have talked to her about my anxiety and the constant fear of her finding someone better.She constantly reassures me that she chooses to be with me and that she is not going anywhere but somehow I cant overcome my anxiety.I worry about everything she does and constantly second guess everything.The hardest part is not listening to my anxiety and not saying all of the things that bother me.My first appointment with the T is next week I am looking forward to speaking with her about my anxiety and specifically the relationship problems.

[SoupDragon]

I have been seeing my T for a while now - I suffer will low mood, sui thoughts and most recently the major difficulty has been with overwhelming anxiety. Just started on some meds this week to take when the anxiety gets really bad. I find the work with T really hard, but I do think it is worth it.

Welcome to PC - Soup