[DespondentDaisy]

I know, that sounds weird, but I recently changed my personal info page after meeting with my pdoc- I was thinking I was possibly borderline and shizotypal. After talking to her I realized that while I may have a few traits of borderline personality, I really am not. As for shizotypal, I realized that that really wasn't me, I just thought because it's about having trouble with close personal relationships, but it's more to the extreme with a lot of other aspects that I can't relate to at all. So I have a new presciption; higher dose, same drug (prozac). I told her that overall I was doing better on the 20mg up from 10, I still had suicidal thoughts. Granted I wasn't totally dejected and lacking my normal more upbeat attitude, I still have a lot of uneccesary guilt (her words) and overall pessimism about life. Though I've noticed I've been posting more here, which is a good sign. I think the meds are helping, before I would be too negative and depressed to muster the energy to login on a more regular basis.- I'm coordinating with her office to find a therapist (this is my psychiatrist) suited to me as well. She said I could benefit (I agree). I think I've always been a bit anxiety ridden, which then led to my depression- as early as my elementary years. I'm hoping things keep going well. Just thought I'd share.

[dusty9838]

Originally Posted by DespondentDaisy

I know, that sounds weird, but I recently changed my personal info page after meeting with my pdoc- I was thinking I was possibly borderline and shizotypal. After talking to her I realized that while I may have a few traits of borderline personality, I really am not. As for shizotypal, I realized that that really wasn't me, I just thought because it's about having trouble with close personal relationships, but it's more to the extreme with a lot of other aspects that I can't relate to at all. So I have a new presciption; higher dose, same drug (prozac). I told her that overall I was doing better on the 20mg up from 10, I still had suicidal thoughts. Granted I wasn't totally dejected and lacking my normal more upbeat attitude, I still have a lot of uneccesary guilt (her words) and overall pessimism about life. Though I've noticed I've been posting more here, which is a good sign. I think the meds are helping, before I would be too negative and depressed to muster the energy to login on a more regular basis.- I'm coordinating with her office to find a therapist (this is my psychiatrist) suited to me as well. She said I could benefit (I agree). I think I've always been a bit anxiety ridden, which then led to my depression- as early as my elementary years. I'm hoping things keep going well. Just thought I'd share.

I'm glad you shared your recent experience. I too have been through exactly the same thing... for years I wondered if I was suffering from something more than depression. It sounds like you have a good psychiatrist to help you work through your issues. I have also always been anxiety ridden and have dealt with it since I was in middle school (probably earlier just hard to remember that far back now).

I hope things continue to get better for you. Good luck