I just don't know anymore

Life has been awful. I am arguing with my parents all the time. They are cutting back hours at work. I gave up on my upgrading. The arguing at home as gotten to the point where I am staying at a friends house, telling my parents that I'm only there because it's closer to work. The thing that has been keeping me going is a very special girl that I have incredibly strong feelings for. She is everything to me. She lives about 8 hours away, but we Skype almost every night. We are close and have a connection. We say we love each other all the time, and I mean it. She said she did too. But she got a boyfriend today :/ I know she didn't mean to hurt me, but I still cried. So did she when we were on Skype. I was willing to wait for her, but ended up getting burned. It feels like...I'm not good enough. After everything we went through, I though that I meant something to her, like she did to me. And now she's gone. I see her name come up and my heart gives a jolt. it feels like nothing will be the same. I know it won't. I lost the one thing that kept me going. My depression was already taking its toll, this just made it worse. I don't know what to do. I miss her, and I want this depression to end :/

Be gentle with you during this time, it's hard for anyone when a relationship ends. ((((( connorc )))))

Hey Connor, sorry you're going through this. I know what depression feels like, and it sucks. I wish I could help you. All I can say is that we are all here for you, we know how you feel. If you want to talk to someone you can always PM me.

thank you I could use someone to talk too at times