[skyscraper]

Hi

I was wondering if I'm suffering from a depressive episode? Everyday(for most of the day or either half the day) I have this depressed/sad and irritable mood. On the weekends, I get up between 2-5pm everyday and it takes me forever to get outta bed. And when I finally get outta bed, brush my teeth, and wash my face; I never wanna do anything except watch TV or get on the computer. I'm always tired during the day to. I rarely feel energized. I cant think straight and I'm all over the place. Sometimes, I just don't know what to do. And that's really frustrating because I feel soo stupid. I feel like there's no hope for me at all. I'm just a worthless piece of nothing. I've lost all my hope, and it's really sad. I just feel so guilty and half the time I don't even know why.

So anyway, I've been this way almost a year now. Sometimes it'll get worse. I'll lock myself in my room and not talk to anyone for like 3 days. I just really want to get other peoples opinion. Am I actually having a depressive episode or not?

[alwaysrejoice]

It sure does sound like it to me. See a doctor, you don't have to suffer like this for so long.

[skyscraper]

Thanks for answering alwaysrejoice. I really appreciate it.

There's only one problem though.. I was seeing a therapist for depression and other stuff last year but my mom stopped taking me to therapy because I wasn't ''changing my ways''. I thought that was really stupid.. and I still think it is. How are you going to tell someone to stop being depressed?? The whole situation just made me even more depressed. And now, I've been hiding the fact that I'm still depressed. I just keep all my true feelings bottled up inside. Although, it sometimes comes out as anger. I don't know.. I just figured that I'll wait until I'm 18 to go see a psychologist or something. So I wont have to deal with my mom taking me out of therapy.