very rough week

Everything seems to be going wrong or happening all at once. My brother had open heart surgery yesterday. My niece, who i helped raise, had her 2nd child. My mom is sick and had to put off her eye surgery. My doctor wants me to get ECT done. I'm scared out of my mind. My depression seems to be getting worse all the time. I've had ECT done before; it worked but i lost 2 years of my life. I'm crying all the time it seems like. I'm basically stopped eating. I'm just not hungry. I sleep most of the time trying to escape everything. My part-time job just ended. I just want to curl up and never wake up but some part of me says no. i'm trying to hang on that part but its getting hard. Well i go back Monday to see my therapist to talk about whether or not ECT is needed and Tuesday to see my psychiatrist to make the final decision. I don't want to go back into the hospital but i'll do what i have to.

I appreciate your endeavor Lovely. In as much problems it's hard to think this way but you seem quite strong person. Just don't let depression, overcome you and you can definitely make it better.
May God make all these things easier for you.

Thank you for the words of encouragement. I really needed that!