Trigger warning

I just want to curl up into the tiniest ball I can get my fat butt into and never wake up again. I can't deal with life. I can't deal with change. I can't deal with responsibility. Please God make it so I don't wake up tomorrow.

Tomorrow (today?) whenever you need or want just come back to this thread and post. If tomorrow is slow-motion, so be it.

I get this ... Totally!

Sorry you're there because it's not a fun place to be.

Hoping when you awaken that at least one thing seems a little brighter.

Please, just make sure you do awaken ... Okay?

Sincerely,
BC

we can survive together ((((hugs))) tomarrow has a bright future for both of us (((hugs tara))))

How about a day that you don't deal with change and responsibility? Can you take a day off, for YOU?

(((((hugs))))))

I hear you.

three more days until I move. no option for taking a day off. i can't go to the hospital because that will jeopardize my job in phoenix. i need help. i cant do this right now.

Hang on tight Tara. Change is scary. You can do it!!

((((Tara))))

So sorry you are going through so much. I know that change can be so scary and hard. But change can also be good. I hear how you are feeling and I validate how you feel. But I believe in you and you are cared about and loved more than you know.

Take time to breathe, and to rest. Take it one day at a time, one minute at a time, one second if you have to. I know how you are feeling and it is not fun or easy. But you are not alone, we are here for you and we care.

Each step you take is another behind you. You are here for a reason, you may not know what that reason is yet but you will and maybe part of that reason is within this move. Hold onto that and know that when tomorrow comes you will have the strength to make it one more day, then one more day, etc.

Taking it one day at a time is all we can do. You are important, how you feel is important, and you are important to us. Maybe part of your reason is being here and giving to others which you have in more ways than you may even know. Now we are here for you and we are hearing you and we do care.

Keep coming back and reaching out. You will make it hon, just breathe and keep posting as you can. We will get through this together as whitenight said, one step at a time. You said to God to make it so you won't wake up tomorrow, but someone close to me told me something that I hold onto when times get so dark and hard and I feel I cannot take another step.

"If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it." Hold onto that. You are not alone.

Sending you many gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Tara
I hear you and hope the black times go away soon. Just do the best you can. We are here...right behind you so if you slip, we'll catch you.

Tara ... I'll be thinking of you ... A lot is on your plate right now and I'm hoping that once you get settled into your new routine that all this stress you've been under will turn into warm sunshine for you ...

Sincerely,
BC