[ascin]

You know when the warning light starts blinking on your dashboard? It is a sign that something is wrong. Left alone, severe damage will happen to your car.
The warning light is going off in my head. It is telling me to pull over and check "under the hood". If I don't stop soon...I will break. My fear is that if I stop, I won't be able to start again. I just don't have the strength. So I keep going...praying like mad that I make it one more day. Wishing that someone will pull me over...lend a hand...fix the problem.
Get it?

Cynthia Ryan

[LMo]

Cin - man, what you are writing is scary. I'm taking you seriously. Not sure where in California you live, but I used to live in SF and would be glad to help you find somebody to help you. Oh... and I just read that you are a psych. nurse, so I guess you already know what resources you have available. Oh. And at a prison -- I can see how you'd be stressed. Can you take a medical leave of absence or at least some vacation and get out of your head for a bit? Or take a few yoga classes or get some massages? Massage schools abound in California, and you can get a massage from a student for about $20/hour or something like that.

Please don't hesitate to call 911 if you are feeling like you need intervention from yourself. But if you need someone to talk to, someone here referred me to a really good website that offers online therapy. You can read the profiles and certifications of the therapists (some psychologists, lots of MAs in social work) and you can find someone who is online and available for immediate counseling for 1/2 hour or 1 hour sessions. If you are interested in this, the website is www.helphorizons.com. I have used it twice so far and it has been a big help for me.

Take care -- I'm thinking about you,
LMo

We are ALL going to be a-ok!

[Foolish]

Ascin. What you just wrote was amazing quote honestly. Do you do lots of writing? Cause that was friggen brilliantly put and spectacular overall. But as LMo said it does sound scary, I don't know much about you at all but I know the feeling of wanting someone to just come along and help you out and fix your problems and possibly set you going out on the road of life again. You can always talk to us and seriously you should consider writing more in your spare time if you don't already. Brilliant.

Ian

Death Calls Us All, How Long We Prolong It Is Our Choice