[kjb1985]

Im 26 and was diagnosed clinical depression at age 14, adhd at age 15, anxiety/ocd at 23yo. At 23yo i checked myself into a hospital because I thought i was having a nervous break down. ( Racing thoughts, rapid heartbeat, strange thought } They told me it was anxiety and ocd, and have been taking citaopram 20mg, and valium 10mg once a day, and 1mg xanax as needed for panic attacks..
Sometimes I dont even call them panic attacks, they are more like depression attacks, i lay in bed to miserable to do much of anything. I also started abilify 5mg which kinda worked, than stopped working and i ran out of the samples dr. gave me, im going back on the 3rd. I have no energy, motivation, and am pushing my friends, gf, family away. I admit life isnt going very well, but I cant help but think even if I had no problems, I would still feel the way i do..depressed, on edge, worried, scared, lethargic, lost, hard to concentrate or function...
I feel sometimes i should be put away somewere because i might be a crazy person, even though i know deep inside im not crazy i just need the right meds. But for what? ive tried ALOT of depression meds. I havent taken adhd meds in 10years, do i bring that up to my pych? I constantly worry i have a serious mental illness, because it just seems to get worse. I dont want to have a breakdown again..i dont want to turn into a bi-polar, or a schizo. Im very worried about myself and dont know what to do..it doesnt help i live with my retired parents and have custody of my 6yo son and lost my licence so i am trapped here, luckily i have a great job working from home. In fact im lucky to have my son as well, otherwise i would find no reason to get up in the morning

[stern]

I'm sorry for what you are going through. I understand the feeling when apparently everything goes smoothly and your inner world becomes devastated and then it starts interfering your external life as well. You should discuss it with your therapist. Nobody will consider you crazy. You sound quite a sensible person and being neurotic doesn't mean that you are going to be psychotic as well. Keeping all these things inside makes you feel even worse. I wonder if you express when something bothers you? If not then start expressing now. You'll feel better.
Wish you good luck!

[Ipod1]

Man I feel the same way. I'm also diagnosed OCD anxiety and depression but very often feel like its something more serious. I don't have any tips though I wish I had some answers to end all this suffering and weird feelings/thoughts

[teop]

I like that you were able to identify some things you are lucky to have...I wish you well!