[turquoisesea]

I feel like such a failure

I don't know if this is depression or just normal. but I think its a bit of both. after these years of dealing with depression I still don't get how you can be so optimistic about life and stuff, and still have 0 energy. 0 energy, -1 energy, -2 energy... and you just keep going and you get less. And you give yourself a break and when you try to work again you go back to 0.


whyyy can't I just have one week of full days of energy... not just 5 hours in teh morning that are useable


I feel like the biggest failure ever right now. College application related. College degree related.

[dazeofdolphins]

Be patient with yourself
dazeofdolphins

[Rohag]

((((((( Turquoisesea! )))))))

I don't think you are a failure, but what I think doesn't matter. You feel like a failure, and I acknowledge your feelings.

Your feelings don't exist in a vacuum. A lot has been going on in your life and all that on the background of years of struggling with depression. Depression and low energy go hand-in-hand. As true as that is, is it possible your lack of energy is due to "depression+?" Has your depression diagnosis grabbed all the attention away from other, additional causes of low energy? Have you had a thorough medical check-up recently?

Though I ask this, I do not intend to minimize the power of depression by itself to suck all vitality out of a person!

[roads]

** gentle hugs (((( turquoisesea )))) sitting near **

... what Rohag said ...