[Suki22]

I'm home sick today, went home early yesterday and was out Wednesday as well. why is everything so magnified when you're sick?

I'm feeling down and very sad. I feel completely useless in my life (I know that's a sweeping generalization). I work, I feed my pets and go out with friends once or twice a week, but I want more. I know it's dangerous to look around and see what everyone else has and compare myself to them, but that doesn't stop me. I thought I'd have a family; I thought I'd at least be married by now. now I feel it's too late for any of that. I'm financially not where I want to be. at least a dozen of my friends and family are off on trips right now and I'm so envious. I have no where to go, no money to go anywhere, and no one to go with. I'm so incredibly lonely.

I feel like I'm in survival mode right now, which is no way to live. I know I will feel better soon but for now, I feel sorry for myself. can anyone relate?

[Callmebj]

Hey Suki, We all need our pity parties now and then. I think you are aware to not get stuck in them. I'm sorry you are lonely, me too. I have been a widow for 5 years and sometimes it sucks to be alone. It also sucks to worry about money.

But then I think about how I don't have to cook, iron, pick up after, or wait on a man...then I feel pretty darn lucky!! Hugs, bj

[Caretaker Leo]

Totally relate. I suspect even people who don't have any mental health issues feel the same when they are ill.

When our bodies are weak from a physical illness, our emotions and thoughts seem to follow. Can't tell you how many times I've been home ill and almost felt like the emotional pain was worse than the physical pain.

Hope you feel better soon.

[Suki22]

thanks so much for the comments. you have no idea how much they helped! I'm feeling better emotionally today and perhaps physically as well--but that may just be the cold medicine kicking in. thank you!