[doggiedo]

I feel horrible today. I don't want to say I'm suicidal, but I am close to it. I am not in any danger, but I feel horrible about myself, about everything. I have been getting worse as the day has gone on.

I'm current in the chat room, to get some support NOW, but waiting for someone to come in.

I have a headache and stomach ache.
I didn't get any work done today and came home early.
I hate myself and feel worthless.
I feel fat and hate the way I look, even though people tell me I look great and am considered normal in relative terms.
I feel like I have no friends, noone to talk to...I feel really alone
I feel like my life is a waste.
My b/f is taking my behavior personal, and that makes me feel even worse.
Everything seems so pointless...

Maybe I should just go to bed????

[Rohag]

I'm sorry for your difficult day, Doggiedo. First, the physical -- what's up with the headache and stomach ache? Are these unusual? Can you eat or take anything for them?

[doggiedo]

Thanks Rohag, Idk. I think just stress? I"ve been having a hard time eating, just not so hungry and nothing sounds appetizing... and the headache is from not eating I think.

[Rohag]

And today? Has today been any better? How's the head and the stomach?

I've been having a hard time eating, just not so hungry and nothing sounds appetizing...

-- Textbook depression symptom. Could there be an additional something, though? (Feel free to ignore the questions; I'm running what you've said through my imagination...)

[doggiedo]

Doing a lot better, thanks. No tummy ache and no headache. Just slept 14 hours last night and another hour nap today.

Argh...frustrating.

[LookingforCalm]

I understand how you feel. I finally took myself to the doctor on Monday because I couldn't take it anymore. I'm now on medication and can already tell a HUGE difference.

I'm sorry you're feeling so low. I was there, too, and completely understand. The first time I went through a rock-bottom depression, my husband (now ex) took it personally as well. Simply remind your man that it's not about him, or the lack of him being a good man to you. You simply aren't feeling like yourself, and that's nothing to be ashamed of. I think some guys think that you're going to "blame" them, and simply remind him that this is NOT the case. You're feeling blue, and you're trying to get better - that's what counts.

I hope you feel better soon. I really think you should talk to a doctor...

[doggiedo]

Ohyea? That's great. How long did it take for you to tell a difference?Maybe I shouldn't have ever gone off. Think this will shake itself off?