thinking

is there a point to life??????
why am I here, is it to suffer this depression?
if so, i would rather not be here.
will it ever end
this feeling of uselessness, worthlessness, and self hatred
where should i go to make it better
what should i do to end this pain

Hi! You didn't mention if you are in therapy or on any meds. That is a good place to start. try finding a good therapist you can trust. In the mean time just know that you are not alone. Here are many people who can relate and support. Strongs!

No one knows the point to life, some think it may be to simply enjoy it, you only get one life. There is a reason you are depressed, something has caused you to be this way. Could be many things, chemical imbalance in your brain, people close to you suffering or dying, certain triggers in your brain that you get when certain things occur. Different people feel stricken when certain things occur, such as for myself, I feel like a total failure if I cannot be at least moderately pleasing to everyone. I am a peace keeper by nature. Honestly, I too wish I wasn't here, every day I wish I was never born. But...I am here, so I just have to live. Sometimes it feels like it will never end, but it will. Life is short, and you get out of it what you put into it. You should go somewhere where there are people that you enjoy to be around. You should find out what you enjoy in life, and what makes you just a little bit happier and pursue it. I'm not saying this is an easy task, I still don't know what I am supposed to do.