No interested in anything anymore

I'm not sure what to do. I've been dealing with constant depression and anxiety for over a year now. A lot of it is related to a relationship I am in and some of it has to do with family and school. I've never been in a relationship before so I feel like I don't know what I'm doing and that makes me anxious. There are problems at home and my grades keep getting worse in school.

I'm now at the point where I've lost all interest in my school plans. Originally I wanted to get a PhD, but now I'm very doubtful I'll get into graduate school. I'm not really that interested in graduate school anymore either. I find that I don't have much interest in anything anymore. Nothing excites me. I get through the day by doing homework, but it is increasingly hard for me to concentrate. Sometimes I skip classes because I cannot sit still for more than 20 minutes at a time. I've been seeing a therapist for almost a year, but I'm not sure if it is making a difference. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about my problems anymore. In my relationship there are some things that are bothering me. Whenever I get the guts to say what is on my mind I feel as though he doesn't want to talk about it and changes the subject. I have too many problems and nothing is being solved. I don't have any interest in achieving anything anymore.

I've been gaining weight too, which sucks. I usually gain weight during this time of year, but I think my birth control is making it worse this time. I exercise, but I hate it and don't enjoy it at all. I feel like I'm being punished when I exercise. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I don't even like watching tv and every song I hear makes me cry. My days are busy and I have a lot to do, but nothing makes me happy anymore. I have an appointment with my therapist in two days, but I'm not sure what to tell her.

I know how u are feeling. I've lost all interest in everything and spend my days doing practically nothing. I don't watch tv or do anything fun cos nothing is fun anymore! I'd tell ur therapist what u've put in ur post and take it from there. I hope u are feeling better soon!!

Depression rears its ugly head again. It could be also that you are doing way too much and are overwhelmed. Also sounds like that relationship may not be what its cracked up to be. You are suppose to be happy in a relationship. A relationship that makes you work too hard...well,,...that is a sign maybe things are not great and communication might be the key. Also we all think we are suppose to be in a relationship and the problem has to be "me." Well no...maybe the problem is the other person and you are putting up with things you should not have too..."to thine own self be true"

Take it easy...reevaluate your priorities.....life is too short...
Talk to the therapist and pdoc about getting meds reevaluated as well

Another thing I worry about is that my brother has manic depression. I'm really scared that I might have that too. I don't want to be on meds like him. He's had several suicide attempts and it is very hard to afford his medication. I don't want that to happen to me too, my health insurance doesn't even cover acne, none the less manic depression.

What you describe sounds like depression. You mentioned you don't like talking to people about things. Does your therapist know about your current feelings as you described them above? If you ever feel like talking I'm always happy to get messages. I hope you feel better soon. Take care and be kind to yourself, you deserve it!

Does anyone ever feel the worst when you wake up in the morning? I am so depressed when I wake up. I usually have bad dreams, but even when I don't majorly depressed.

Yes. I always feel worst in the morning. I go downhill from there!

"Maturity is simply a better
grasp on cause and effect"