[Puffyprue]

Hi Guys!

i know i've been absence far too long from this site!
my depression really worst lately, but i dont know why i always can appear as happy as it can be and no one knows that iam depressed but when iam all alone i cried and cried and cried and i feel suicidal ann i feel ashamed of myself because iam abused my meds again

i just want all of this to end , thats it!

i am tired feeling unlove and unwanted whole my life, what did i do to deserved this, i never ask to be cripple ..why all of this happened to me
why?
why everyone treated me differently ? why?
why human so cruel?

[Leed]

Hi Puffy ~ I wish I had something really important to say! LOL But all I can ask is are you seeing a therapist? I certainly hope so. You do need to see one. I assume that you are since you're on medications, but that could be for a number of things.

If you're not seeing a therapist, please make an appointment -- a good therapist can really help you deal with alot of your problems. It may take some time, but it's really worth it! God bless & please take care. Hugs, Lee

[Rohag]

((((((( Puffyprue! )))))))

True -- people can be cruel and no one is safe from indifferent calamity. And too few will see the preciousness that is you, Puffyprue.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( puffyprue ))))))))))))))))))

[madisgram]

(((((((((PuffyPrue))))))))))
i care for you. you are a BEAUTIFUL person. you have a beautiful, loving spirit. that's why i care so much when you doubt yourself.
i don't understand how thoughtless ppl can be so unkind. BUT KNOW THIS...you are worthy of being treated by others as you treat (me for example) others. stay the beautiful person you are in spite of adversity. try not to allow their unkind behavior to become yours. focus on who you are in your heart. surround yourself with ppl who love you just for your being YOU.

[Puffyprue]

[FONT=Comic Sans MS]all : Thank you all for all th hugs and all good support!

Jan ； what if no one love you?

i've been depressed for more than a weeks and been not eating for a weeks or so and all my housemate leaves because they times has come to leaves so iam all alone again so idecided i will spent time with my friends and she asked me to go rafting so we went rafting and guess how many times people say it infront of me that " you're so beautiful too badly you are ..."
i know people dont do it to hurt me but i cant handle it anymore
iam criple .. so what ???
i feel so sad and i do i want to get better but its seeem impossible !

[Simple Joe]

hi puffypure
people cant see you're depress because they don't care (well most of them don't), or maybe you're just good at hiding it. i hide it exceptionally well. if only people knew the thoughts that cross our minds, then they really be concern. suicide... cant deny for some its the only way, but way rush the inevitable. if we're lucky we'll all die soon. dont be ashamed because u abused uyour meds, i do it every day. well what do they espect? some one loves u someone wants u. i cant give you all the answers. u don't deserve this but even the cripple fight back.

[madisgram]

that " you're so beautiful too badly you are ..."

prue, perhaps this isn't the appropriate wording by me but here goes:

if someone said the above to me and i was crippled, i might say, "and your point is?" perhaps they will feel what it feels to you when they say such thoughtless words. i hope it embarreses them with your reply. i don't doubt that it will.

another way to respond is to ask them how they would feel if they were the cripple and someone made a remark like that to them. (healthier response i think)

another reply could be-
"what an unkind remark."
my point is this-
you do not have to take it. imho perhaps they need to look at their own "cripple" -being unable to treat ppl in a kind way differences or not.

i cannot even imagine how it would feel if i was you. so i'm not going to say things that have no substance and not address your pain. one thought comes to mind-do you allow in your own mind that your being crippled defines you? i know you don't. we've been friends for some time now. you've never felt sorry for yourself or asked "why me?"
it's worthy to note you have so many wonderful attributes. look at yourself honestly and write down those qualities you have that you are proud of. carry the list and read it often. those qualities are affirmations about yourself.
of course i dont deny there will be other times a thoughtless person will make an unkind remark. prepare yourself with a reply to them. you like all of us are worthy of respect. the other person should feel shame, not you.
i don't know if this is helpful or not but i needed to reply.
i'm not too tolerant of people who treat others that way. perhaps i need to be less opinionated but it's difficult for me. perhaps those people didn't mean to hurt your feelings by being thoughtless. i just can't give them an excuse. justme.

[Puffyprue]

Hi Leed iam sorry i didnt answer you before i dont have any Therapist at this moment and cannot afford for one

@ Jan : Thank you! but sometimes i just very tired no i think i couldnt handle the embarrassment anymore, i feel so embarrassed, when they are talking like i wasnt there or just asked my friends what happens to me like iam not there, for me people staring at me it easy i am good at avoiding them , but when i went with my friends or when they talking so loud about me i feel so embarrassed, why cant they just ignore me and not being noosy? why cant they just ignored me ?
And i asked " why me " so many times .. i am not that strong and life has being so unfair to me and i hate it