[sewerrats]

I have been slipping back into illness for about 2 months now, no the signs i have been hear hundreds of time,s in my life. My eyes give me away the life goes from them, im taking the minimum of meds to cut side effects lexapro seems to have bit me on the bum after a good start. 10MG is low and i could easy go up to 20mg , but i will suffer to much on the side effects. i have ran out of most ssri,s and snris to try has i have took them all in my 35year AD run. mabye i can go back on an old one that pooped on me 30 years ago who knows. The costipation on lexapro is a downer and i have taken all the nhs meds to help it. Get a fisher cut in your ar** and you soon go on a downer believe me. I go to the mental hospital next month for my 6 month check up , but to be honest i only go to stay on there books , and not have to start at the bottom again. To say there useless would be a compliment . The GP is better they have more money to spend than NHS hospitals. Its bad when a gp can give you meds the hospital carnt afford to give you. Take lexapro you wont get that at hospital citalopram yes its cheaper. I have the benzo, s which still work for me im not addicted has i dont crave more , but i carnt come of them after all these years or i would be in trouble big time. I have been hear many times it dont get any easier but life goes on.

[Rohag]

Hello, Sewerrats. Thirty-five years on antidepressants...

Originally Posted by sewerrats

I go to the mental hospital next month for my 6 month check up , but to be honest i only go to stay on there books , and not have to start at the bottom again.

"...and not have to start at the bottom again" -- I agree; that might be worse than you have it now.

My own pdoc has told me that going into the inpatient facility with which he himself is associated would "not be therapeutic" for me. It's discouraging when a system created to help people evolves into the opposite.

Do you think there's any way to forestall your slip back into depression or at least mitigate the effects of the episode? Have you had relatively easier episodes in the past?

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Sewerrats. Thirty-five years on antidepressants...

"...and not have to start at the bottom again" -- I agree; that might be worse than you have it now.

My own pdoc has told me that going into the inpatient facility with which he himself is associated would "not be therapeutic" for me. It's discouraging when a system created to help people evolves into the opposite.

Do you think there's any way to forestall your slip back into depression or at least mitigate the effects of the episode? Have you had relatively easier episodes in the past?

i have that is true but you can never tell which its going to be. Some times a simple going to bed for 2 days can break the cycle, but then again if the 2 become 7 your in trouble. To take my lexapro up to 20mg may be better that im thinking, im thinking twice the side effects wwwwwwwwwwhich may not be the case i can all but give it a go, thats the dose i should be on.But the sex thing became a prob mabye in my head than in my loins. Hospital the best people in there are the patients, there not staff friendly mabye because of what they put up with. but bringing out meds in a trolly 1 hour late has people climb the walls in crisis is not a pretty site to me its a zoo, to go to be sedated for 2 weeks cool , then let you home to chill would be a better option

[bharani1008]

It's too bad that you are suffering like this. I've been depressed for decades as well but medication has helped me. I've taken several different things over the years and most of the time got some relief. They're doing research all the time and finding new and better medications.
Keep on trying. Keep on posting to let us know how you are doing, OK?

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by bharani1008

It's too bad that you are suffering like this. I've been depressed for decades as well but medication has helped me. I've taken several different things over the years and most of the time got some relief. They're doing research all the time and finding new and better medications.
Keep on trying. Keep on posting to let us know how you are doing, OK?

i took the 20mg this morning upped it 10mg to give it a shot and i dont feel great , i think the med has pooped hence the bad reaction to the raise. The last 5 new meds have all proved pretty worthless in trails the big AGO med cost a fortune even had its own web site, now all but abandoned

[Cocosurviving]

Definitely contact ur pdoc.

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Definitely contact ur pdoc.

I will talk this out with ny GP before any pdoc, at least he knows my name. ENGLISH PDOCS have have has many has six student undestudies that can ruin your life in the swipe of a pen. there medscript writers nothing more, my gp can write scipts but thanks for the idea. I have an appointment in a months time and they wont bring it forward, its my 6 month check an they already postponed it for a month. i can get in the gp tommorow. the ideas are fast running out, i would personally live on 6 -8 mg of ativan up from my 4mg , ads only give me grief with weight and sex ect ect. I was a good looking guy till ads pumped my body into to a blob, If a high dose of ativan would kill the anxierty dead and dont trigger depression like anxiert does i would gladly take 8mg ativan i day for life , why would i want to detox a life saver. BUT its the fine ballance between cronic anxierty reaching depressin that needs to be blocked, plus i would like my body back to what it should be. thanks agin can you see my point. but i dont think the doc will up the benzos NHS orders

[bharani1008]

You must be so frustrated. My Dr. says that one medication alone is often not enough. For instance, he gives me antidepressants but adds mood stabilizers. without the mood stabilizers the antidepressant didn't work properly. Once I got the right amt. of stabilizers I immediately could tell the difference.
It's too bad you have to be victim to your medical system. It sounds like your GP is better informed and more responsive than your pdoc! Thank goodness that you have him.

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by bharani1008

You must be so frustrated. My Dr. says that one medication alone is often not enough. For instance, he gives me antidepressants but adds mood stabilizers. without the mood stabilizers the antidepressant didn't work properly. Once I got the right amt. of stabilizers I immediately could tell the difference.
It's too bad you have to be victim to your medical system. It sounds like your GP is better informed and more responsive than your pdoc! Thank goodness that you have him.

sounds like your bipolar , with mood stabilizers. i dont need them for anxierty and depression. In england they do tend to take a 1 med 1 illness policy though, you are right on that. Unless you bipolar or scits

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by sewerrats

I will talk this out with ny GP before any pdoc, at least he knows my name. ENGLISH PDOCS have have has many has six student undestudies that can ruin your life in the swipe of a pen. there medscript writers nothing more, my gp can write scipts but thanks for the idea. I have an appointment in a months time and they wont bring it forward, its my 6 month check an they already postponed it for a month. i can get in the gp tommorow. the ideas are fast running out, i would personally live on 6 -8 mg of ativan up from my 4mg , ads only give me grief with weight and sex ect ect. I was a good looking guy till ads pumped my body into to a blob, If a high dose of ativan would kill the anxierty dead and dont trigger depression like anxiert does i would gladly take 8mg ativan i day for life , why would i want to detox a life saver. BUT its the fine ballance between cronic anxierty reaching depressin that needs to be blocked, plus i would like my body back to what it should be. thanks agin can you see my point. but i dont think the doc will up the benzos NHS orders

I definitely see your point. I would not want a student prescribing me meds.. I have BP 1 so I can not take ad's. however I can relate to the weight gain. I use to take a anti psychotic which blew me up. I'm glad you can see your GP soon.

[sewerrats]

I have to wait for the gp i want for a week, there are 8 gps in the surgery and 2 i like to see who no me, one is on holiday so that puts the other guy under pressure. I can see a gp tommorrow but it wont be the one i want, 1 week is nothing in the sceem of life. Life is so weird the gp on holiday once had a massive breakdown with work load , i have an idea he may be off now to prevent a relaspe. Nobody is safe from the depression monster.