[Breana]

My perception on life is askewed with its struggles and banal day in day out bordum.. I do not try in school nore do i care to, i should care but i am so scarred of growing up... I dont know if i can do it. Things seem so ****ed up is anything in life good? My mother was raped and is a immature judgemental ***** who abandoned me and my sister when my sister has a terminal illness and only has a certain amount of years to live. And i am close with her, My step father was abused and is a **** to. My father used to drink and has anger issues and used to be beat and he is uinhappy everyday of his life with the crazy horrible five children that drive him nuts andthe little amount of money he makes. My step mother has panic disorder and likes to remind me of how much i am unworthy of everything and how much of a burden i am to my family, and i am a depresed suicidal 18 year old to scarred to grow up bcs it seems like the whole world is ****ed up..My grandmother married a millionair and found our that she is cheated on all the time but has nothing without him.. seems like all my friends want to kill themselves it seems astho life seems like a *****? Why do we all do it? does it get better because it seems as tho everytime i ask that question i get silence. that ******** that life gets better is for the naive minds. i am not a naive mind i am to wise for my age and i suffer for it..Does anyone have anything for me..?

[Leed]

Bless your heart ~ You come from EXTREMELY dysfunctional people!!! I don't know ANYONE as dysfunctional as that!!! What you have experienced and have been told is NOT TRUE. Life is NOT just a bunch of @##$. Sure, we all have our trials and tribulations once in a blue moon -- but life is WONDERFUL. Just take a look at the sky on a clear day -- see how wonderfully blue it is! Look at the stars on a clear night -- can you believe how pretty it is??? How about a baby's smile? Have you ever seen anything so cute? Or a new puppy? Or kitten? And how about the satisfaction of getting a job and receiving your first paycheck? There's a LOT of pride in that. There are ALL SORTS of things that are wonderful in life. I couldn't name them all here.

I urge you to seek therapy. if you're suicidal, you definitely need to speak to someone! Please talk to a therapist as soon as possible, ok? God bless & please take care. Hugs, Lee

[Breana]

Awwh I never thought of it that way I like babies, they give me happiness with their cute little bodies. And faces. I already see a therapist and take meds juustwaitnand doesn't seem likke enoufe somtimesnyes. But Thaankyou I will try to change the way I pperceive things it could help out for the better

[Rohag]

Hello, Breana! Leed is right. You've been surrounded by dysfunction. No matter how much effort you invest, healing from that requires time. As best you can, gently allow yourself the time to heal.

[Breana]

OK thankyou rohag appreciate it lots <3