Lost and Confused..

I'm 24 years old female. I got back from a semester abroad 4 months ago. During my time there I've been in a relationship with my roommate, which means that we've been together all day, every day. I love him so much, though I know it's not mutual. He was my first relationship and the first guy I ever slept with. I come from a religious family and this time with him was the first time I felt really “free” do be myself and to do what I please to do. We hardly talking anymore, but I think about him all the time.

I’m a law school student and I recently (2.5 month) started my year and a half internship which is required in my country for doing the bar exams. I hate my work and constantly thinking of resigning and leaving the legal profession. I have one semester left in school and I can hardly concentrate on my work and my mind always drifts apart.

Because my family and most of my friends are religious I feel pressure for getting married, to start my life as a “grownup” even though I am clueless as to whom I am and what I want.

I feel sad and cry almost every day. I feel as if there is nothing exciting about my life anymore, and probably never will be. I don’t believe I will ever find someone that I will want other than him. I don’t believe that I will find a job I like or that I will ever be happy again. I feel as if my life is heading a depressing, lonely and empty outcome.

Going to see a mental therapist will destroy my chances in getting a governmental position I once filled (for 6 years) and left in order to finish my legal training. Some people told me to go for a coaching session, but I did try some online class once of positive psychology and it didn’t help.

I feel so lost and confused. Depressed and lonely.
Thank you for reading, will appreciate any advice.

I wish I knew exactly what to tell you. But if this guy doesn't feel the same about you (and you're SURE) then please don't waste your time on him. I'm SURE you'll find someone who will love you and treat you the way you DESERVE to be treated. You're still very young and have plenty of time to find a great guy! Time DOES heal our broken hearts -- it just takes awhile. Try to keep busy. I know that's hard when we're hurting.

As for your career choice, if you HATE it, please don't go into it. Why spend your life in something that you don't enjoy?? That's a waste of your life! Instead, try to find something that really enthuses you -- something that you have a passion for! It's never too late! Don't go into law if you hate it!

I wish you the very best. You have a great like ahead of you. Please seek counseling if you CAN. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee