[Tamster]

I was in psych. ICU, I lied to get out and faked feeling better just to get out and be alone. I am so depressed, I think worse than when I was in the hospital this morning.

[tangodream]

Go back to the hospital & tell them the truth. Take care of yourself.

[Tamster]

Im afraid to do that now. I need to be alone

[Leed]

If you feel worse, maybe it's better to be IN the hospital. Besides, there are times you CAN be alone in the hospital.

Perhaps you'd better go back --- I'd rather get better, than be alone for just awhile. Wouldn't you? Please -- we care about you.

[Miss Jade]

I also think it'd be a good idea to go back. Just tell them the truth. I know it's not easy, but I really think it's the best thing for you to do. Sorry you're struggling - please take care.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Tamster

...just to get out and be alone.

Could times to be "out and alone" be incorporated into your treatment?

[tangodream]

I would think if you tell them at the hospital that you need time to yourself sometimes, they would help arrange it so you could do it safely. You said you feel worse out of the hospital than in it & that should tell you something.

[f.reliant]

Consenus is...go back. Please! As suggested, let the staff know that its important for you to have some alone time. Make the distintiction between wanting to be left alone and needing to be alone. Take care of yourself in the best possible way.

[depressedalaskan]

Only the truth can help you. If you lie to the people that are trying to help you, they will not know your true needs.

[Tamster]

Hey guys I did go back fora week I really wasn't ready to be out alone. Now I feel better for the most part. Med changes helped to, the nightmares are improving.

[Rohag]

This is good news! I'm glad they reexamined your meds, too.

[Tamster]

Me too, I slept so much better after the change. PC has been a godsend also, like a big group hug when I'm sad or lonely.

[newtus]

i feel like i lef the hospital too early. i was in in march.this past march. im very depressed and suicidal. when i came out the outside psych follow up psychiatrist said she thinks i got out too early and she was right. but i lied to get out and i lied to her and said mean things because i didnt want to go back to a hospital. its very scary for me there considering the experiences ive had at those places.

[Tamster]

Newtus,
That's how I got out was by lying to my shrink. It was the worst thing to do even though I hate the psych ward. How are you now?

[misscath007]

Maybe you can look into a partial hospitalization program(PHP)You may need more support right now.

[Tamster]

My doc has suggested that also we are looking into specialty programs now. Some are so far away though

[newtus]

i almost got sent to an all girls residential a few years ago after they saw i was the hospital 5 times in 9 months this is why i try to get so quick and lie.

i need to go back badly right now. but...ill wait it out or whatever

[newtus]

i have no insurance anyway

[dillpickle1983]

insurance doesn't matter. Go back to the hospital if you need too. Hospitals have programs for people that don't have insurance. Don't play roulette with your mental health. We are all supporting you!

[newtus]

i dont understand? it kind of does matter. if im barely able to live normally financially and i put more burden and stress concerning money on me how does that help me? it does not make sense to me. i cant have debt collectors chasing me down because i actually already do. i grew up upper middle class and my parents hit a low economic spot..and i was practically homeless. i lived in squallor.

im really sorry about that.
i just cant.
but thanks

[Tamster]

Hospitals do have charity programs set up for just your kind of problem, I hate the name charity but it has something to do with tax burden I think. It's their write off, Newtus if you need help go or I'll talk your ear off friend!