[taytaybatt]

So it seems whenever i should be in the highest of spirits i sink lower than ever.

I just went on the best trip of my life. I started at an amazing college and met a bunch of people just like me, but I feel worse than ever. I've already reverted back to burning myself some....

any advice

[Leed]

Depression doesn't come when it makes sense. It will hit you at the weirdest times. You think you should be feeling wonderful because you're on a fantastic trip, but you're feeling just horrible. It never makes any sense.

If you can please see a therapist or counselor. It's imporant that you do. Treatment is imperative when we're in a severe 'low' with depression. If you can't afford therapy, please see your medical doctor who CAN help you. He can put you on a temporary dose of antidepressant until you can get into therapy. It will get you over the hump at least.

I wish you the very best. I KNOW how awful depression is, as I've suffered from severe depression since I was a child and I'm now 63 yrs old so I've had it for a very long time. Best of luck and God bless! Hugs, Lee