roller coaster

Geez I feel like I am asking so much, too much from you all. I just need to let it out. Today was much better... until about an hour ago. Then the bleaks came rushing back. The house is heated to 75 and I am cold to the bone. No I don't have a fever. I am supposed to go out later to eat drink and be merry. I am really going to make an effort to follow through and do this. Fake it til you make it, my sister used to say. I just feel crushed out. Like a old smoked butt. Smelly and rotten. Ok. I know this is bs depression thinking. I am just venting. OK? One of the folks I am supposed to meet is a long time friend who is a therapist. I have already told her what has been going on. Every little detail, more than I have revealed here. I am going to do whatever she thinks I should do. If she says go to the hospital, I am going. If that happens, I may be incommunicado for the duration. Why is no one on chat? I have to go now. I am going to write to my cousin who understands this [censored] all too well.

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I was on chat, you had to leave.

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

i want to say and ask a question here i see you said you are just going to do what she says, to me that seems like bliss to just do as your told .. am i wrong in thinking that?

when my ship ran out of fuel i burned the things that made it pretty when i ran out of that i burned the things i loved when i ran out of that i burned willpower to keep me moving. its not a pretty ship but it still moves.

Bliss to just do as you are told? Not me! I can be a resistant SOB. The best way to tell me to do something is to tell me the opposite. Just kidding, I am not that bad. But, no, I do not think just following orders is a good thing at all. Always question authority. One time I was in the hospital and the nurse, a total imbecile, gave me a cup of 12 Tylenol pills to take. She said it was the doctor's orders. I never got to the bottom of that, but glad I did not just do what I was told to do.

Rule number one - Look out for number one.
Rule number two - Look out for number one.

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Hey KV,

Vent away friend - that's why we have ears, or in this case, eyes. It helps to write it out - to get input from others. And each time you post/reply? You share a part of yourself with us, and that my friend, makes us pretty darn special!

Hang in there ... Ok?

Your friend Sam

"You'll never know what you're capable of if you don't try."

Last report: I am back in the saddle again!

Meds seem to be working and I am feeling unstuck from the muck of the swamp of depression.

What a fkg relief!

Thank you all for your blessings and support.

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YAY!!! Good for you, Kvinn! Congratulations for fighting the good fight!!

Um... now that you're feeling much better... um... do you think you might just possibly... um... cut down on the "F" word?? It just hurts my ears and eyes... I'm sorry. It would be greatly appreciated, though.




Wise men still seek Him.

Congratulations. Good luck with continued clarity and postive outlook!

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-- Dave
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fook?

What! did you think it meant (^)*&%^)*&^?

Oh, no way. I wouldn't couldn't do that.

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OUCH!!!! hehehe

SHTOP DAAAAAAT!! Thinking I'm gonna cook up another batch of noodles and ask Sam to join me... hehehehe

Shtop dat, shtop dat, SHTOP DAT!






Wise men still seek Him.