[patricia72]

I was born into the world destined to have to be a survivor and suffer,

I started as a result of carelessness,
which led me to be demoralised,
a slow sure developement to become devious,
The conventional I dare to despise.

My biological mothe was 14 yrs old when she had me.... I have felt cursed by her ever since... I was taken from her at 3 1/2 due to neglect and abuse... thank god no memories... but I feel like I was born into this life destined to be a survivor,

Patricia,
I'm a fighter because I'm a survivor...

[patricia72]

Sorry, my spelling is really off thismorning....
I have been working on this for a long time,
but I have been a perfectionist since childhood...
I'm working on being easier on myself but it bothers me to see just how off I am on my spelling thismorning...
sorry about that,
Patricia

[sorrel]

((((((((((Patricia)))))))))))

my depression and anxiety started at birth too..although my story is different.

[patricia72]

sorrel,
I'm sad to hear that.... I hope you don't have memories from a young age,
for me it is the facts and not memories,
sending you positive vibes and wishing you the best,
Patricia

[sorrel]

((((((Patricia)))))

I was premature, stuff around that...I have very physical and emotional memories, pre-verbal. even though I was loved I couldn't feel it. was so isolated and alone.

sending caring thoughts to you.

Katie

Mine was even earlier. My conception led to my parents being disowned by my Mum's parents. She was their only child and my parents had beeen married for just a month when I started along. I can't shake the guilt I feel.

[sorrel]

(((((Caroline))))))

it wasn't your fault.

[patricia72]

My heart goes out to you'
In my case my mothers father was an abusive alcoholic and my mother at 14, scared, told him she had been raped (not true), my real father went to jail and my real mother left quebec to Onatario to get away from her father.... she wanted to keep me... she married a stranger in ontario and the abuse was from him....phys., sexu., etc.....my real mom it was neglect...
I think she was just too young...
anyways, my real mom was disowned by her family also.... when I met her a few yrs back she refered to herself as "the black sheep of the family"...that is how I feel now with my adoptive family.
Guilt is a powerful thing that I know alot about and work on constantly,
Wishing you the very best,
Patricia

Thank you both.

Patricia, I'm sorry - I didn't mean to hijack your thread.

I hope you can find some peace.

[patricia72]

I don't feel you hijacked my thread at all...
I think if anyone can relate to any of my threads and wish to release or express themselves....
that is really a good thing,
Sending you positive vibes,
Patrica

[Lexicon78]

My pain started a little later, but not much. My abuse started when I was 4...no thanks to the men of this world...

(((((patricia)))))
(((((caroline)))))
(((((sorrel)))))

[patricia72]

Lexicon...
thank you and I feel for you.... children should never have to suffer, reality is so cruel
hope you are well, wishing you the very best,
Patricia