[tatteredntorn]

My dad is the only reason I hesitate to end this. When he was younger, one of his brothers shot himself. Few months back, his brother was found shot in the head. And my grandmother.. She was on life support, but they just took her off. He had to travel to Missouri, hopes of seeing her one last time. Mission accomplished, kind of. I just know, whether he really cares or not, it would kill him to.lose me. So now I'm ****ed.

[jlmass]

Please talk to your dad or another family member or friend about how your feeling. You need to get some help to get through this. There is help out there and things can get better if you reach out.

[Puffyprue]

Youve been through a lot lately, can you ask for a day off and go to visit your grandma ? being there with her might help you to feel better
hope you could sort things out and no longer want to end it

hugs

[regretful]

Keep holding on...your father has suffered just as much loss as you. Talk to him. Stay on these forums, reach out to the folks at www.samaritans.org , and please do not make any rash decisions that would be irreversible. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers...