[alone in the world]

sitting alone with no purpose. feeling like life has exited my body. no love for anything or any one. hiding under the blanket does not take me away far enough. my zest for life has left me and I am just a shell of a person. getting myself through the day is getting harder and taking the meds seems senseless. Faking it for the kid is getting harder but what options do I have. Not sure I am doing her any good anyway as I just exist not being of any support to her. Am I setting her up for a life of depression as thats all she knows? Can I come out of this with the skills to be amother again? I just want to be able to smile, laugh and be happy.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by alone in the world

sitting alone with no purpose. feeling like life has exited my body. no love for anything or any one. hiding under the blanket does not take me away far enough. my zest for life has left me and I am just a shell of a person. getting myself through the day is getting harder and taking the meds seems senseless. Faking it for the kid is getting harder but what options do I have. Not sure I am doing her any good anyway as I just exist not being of any support to her. Am I setting her up for a life of depression as thats all she knows? Can I come out of this with the skills to be amother again? I just want to be able to smile, laugh and be happy.

Hi alone....I'm so sorry you're hurting so badly. Wish I could give you a big hug. I must have seen this at some time in another post, but are you in therapy? And if so, is your therapist aware of how bad things have become? I know sometimes therapy is not enough, but I'm just wondering. Sending a huge online hug and many warm thoughts.....

[dailyhealing]

I'm really sorry you are hurting so much right now. I hope you will find the strength and courage to keep moving forward, and that in time you will feel better. I also hope you will keep posting. Thanks for sharing!

[alone in the world]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Hi alone....I'm so sorry you're hurting so badly. Wish I could give you a big hug. I must have seen this at some time in another post, but are you in therapy? And if so, is your therapist aware of how bad things have become? I know sometimes therapy is not enough, but I'm just wondering. Sending a huge online hug and many warm thoughts.....

see a T weekly and speak daily, things just have taken a turn

[shezbut]

I'm sorry that you having such a tough time right now.

I can really relate to your struggles, I'm a mom to 2 daughters & I've been fighting major depression for too long. I take meds daily, I work with a T, but I still have a tough time with life.

Maybe you should call or em-mail your T, to see if you can get some of your latest worries of your mind? Or write about them in a journal, and be better able to let go of these dark thoughts. Gentle hugs to you...

[AngelWolf3]

Hi, alone. I too understand. I have two kids, a son and a daughter, and I feel so bad because sometimes, they are the ones motiviating me to move about. That's not their job.

I like the suggestion about emailing your T. Do you like to draw or write? That sometimes helps me, at least. I am sorry you are going through this. Keep posting here, if nothing else.... Hugs, to you, if that is okay.

[alone in the world]

Originally Posted by shezbut

I'm sorry that you having such a tough time right now.

I can really relate to your struggles, I'm a mom to 2 daughters & I've been fighting major depression for too long. I take meds daily, I work with a T, but I still have a tough time with life.

Maybe you should call or em-mail your T, to see if you can get some of your latest worries of your mind? Or write about them in a journal, and be better able to let go of these dark thoughts. Gentle hugs to you...

thanks for the hugs, I speaks daily with my T but sometimes it is not enough to keep the blues away. I do journal all other intrest are lost right now