[layla11]

I have been off work a few months for depression, then diagnosed with bipolar. I really dont think they know whats wrong with me. I was off last year also for several months. I currently am on disability throu the company I work for, it was rediculous trying to get the disability, how sick do ypu have to be, I was phyically ill also. I'm scared to go back to work that it will happen again. Its really scary to me because I was so sick. I would have times when I thought I was dying of cancer and would cry to my husband. I ve gained a lot of weight. I think its from my mediations. I wasnt sleeping and having nightmares when I did sleep. I am sleeping better now. hope some one can relate to me.

[Blue Poppy]

Hi Layla,

I can relate to your experience. I have been on disability insurance for two years. Long story short, I went off work with a serious depression and was eventually diagnosied with bipolar II. I will be returning to work in September, but am anxious about it. I wonder if I will be able to function the same as before. I wonder if my mind will work like it used to. Will I sleep well enough to get up in the morning? Then there is the whole aspect of facing my co-workers.
I recall the nightmares when I was at my worst. My dreams were dark and I was always fighting for my life.
I will be seeing my pdoc and T a lot when I return, just to ensure that I am functioning well and to keep things from going sideways. I hope you have a supportive medical team that can assist you in returning to your job.

Blue Poppy

[alone in the world]

I can relate because i first went on work disability and found out I could not go back in the condition I was in. So now I am on SSDI and know I need to prepare myself to go back to work. so afraid of that Just keep working with the professionals and they will guide you . Have faith in yourself and know you will make it don't deny the hard times use them as a guide to where you need to steer far away from. Good luck