Just when it was starting to get better

I'll bet some of you know that feeling. It just starts to feel like the clouds are breaking, but the storm of depression rolls back in with a force greater than before. I had a weekend like that. Thought that the medication was working well, went back to some old bad habits - primarily the rumination on negative things - and today (Monday), I feel like I am back at square one - feeling that life should have been better at this point.

So feel that xx

Oh regretful.....How well I know that pattern, and it's so very difficult, and unfair. After all these years of (trying to) deal with this heartless demon, if I had to sum up the worst part of the whole damn thing in one sentence I would say "It ~he always come back." Big sigh. So sorry you're feeling bad, sending lots of warm wishes and hugs..... ps....I hope the clouds part a little for you again asap.

Thanks whimsygirl. I wish you were wrong about the demon's return; sadly, it seems to get worse as this day progresses. I don't know what will make me start thinking in a way that things will get better...though the warm wishes and hugs do help. Thanks again.

Hey there Regretful! I, too, know that feeling all too well! I've tried many, many things to lift those heavy feelings for over 25+ years. Different things worked at different times, but one that has helped me the most was to keep a Gratitude Journal where I could write down at least one thing that I was grateful for each day. There were many days where I struggled to find even one thing, but it can be the smallest of things; like the sun is out, brushing my teeth, eating a pb&j sanswich, etc. And when you have a really dark day(s), take out your journal and read it. Yours could start with: "posting your feelings on this website's support group board". I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!

regretful, Sorry you feel so bad. I'll be praying for you.

Did something happened that set you off?

Nothing in particular...other than it being Monday. I'm involved in a business that I do not enjoy at all. I am the co-owner/operator of it, and this is something from which I can find no escape. When Monday arrives, the depression comes along with it. I also think I may be adjusting to the feelings of depression while medicated. It's also an anniversary time - sad ones at that - tomorrow will be 7 years since my wife and I lost our second child to a miscarriage. Four days after that would have been my father's 76th birthday, and 12 days beyond that is the 16th anniversary of my father's death. So, August, while traditionally a tough month, is even tougher with the depression hanging around...

To all who wrote such nice things and gave the hugs, thank you so much.

regretful....I'm so sorry for your losses.

............ I feel your pain. The ruminating thoughts can send me into a tailspin. I don't know how to stop them, so I try to distract myself, but it doesn't always work.

I consistently find Mondays and morning time the most difficult. I think Monday is a reminder that another long week is ahead. Mornings, because I have the whole day to kill and fight the ruminating thoughts.

I am truly sorry for your losses. I hope you feel better as the week goes on.