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I'll never give up
Never give in Never let a ray of doubt slip in And if I fall I'll never fail I'll just get up and try again Brian McKnight I think I am still fighting even though I lay here every day feeling sorry for myself, angry at the world, but mainly angry with myself. At least I don’t have a knife to my wrist or hold a gun to my head. I just cry every day, laying here, trying to will myself to get up, to smile, to be excited about something. So many times, I have gone through the cycle of starting over, starting over again, always ending up at the same place, but feeling evermore hopeless and faithless. I remember feeling on top of the world every time I have gotten up, feeling like I am moving somewhere, but now it as if I walk in place instead of forward like I am on a treadmill not really going anywhere, just walking in place. It is one thing to let others break your heart, which has happened to me SO many times, but after the last one broke, it instead of giving myself a break it is as if I hit self-destruct, ran over myself, and ripped my own heart out. So, I lay here in a half made bed, forcing myself to even shower every day, wanting so badly to go out and not feel so disconnected from everyone. But at least I lay here alive, waiting, wanting, for that moment when something clicks in my head and I get up, wipe one last tear from my face, and moooooove along.
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Invictus it matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley |
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Hey Trish. So sorry you're feeling down. I bet that every time it happens you come back a little wiser and a little stronger. Maybe you do feel like it's the same old thing every time you get down but it isn't. Depression affects your perception. That's the nature of depression.
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I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad right now and have been for a while.
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The good days are smooth sailing. The bad days are stormy weather. The journey seems so long trying to find the positives, yet sometimes optimism springs anew surprisingly unexpected. Yet, the process becomes more enriching, strengthening our adaptability and the synergy captures our sum total of our being to do our best despite our obstacles.
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yeah tridrich ur doing great, hang in there
![]() dont let anyone think ur losing or doing bad, the people who say that usually have no idea what depression is like |
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