Motivation vs Overwhelmed

The other day I took everything out of my bedroom and dumped it on the rec room floor. It was causing me stress because stuff was everywhere in my room and to clean up one part meant cleaning another first which meant cleaning another first. . . .

Now that it's all in one big pile. .. . I can't deal with it.

Is it a motivation thing, or am I just overwhelmed, or both. Arghhhh I can't stand it when I can't sort out my feelings.

I'm 35 years old and my mom is driving 400km to help me clean my room. I'm happy to see her, but feeling like a failure that I can't take care of myself.

How far is 400km in miles? DUH I think you have a motivational problem. That's all. No big deal, until things get out of hand, and then it's a huge mess. LOL That's my problem too -- motivation. I'm disabled and I HATE cleaning cause it makes me hurt like the daylights. So I put it off and then I end up paying for it later cause it gets twice as bad as if I had just done it at the time. I'm an idiot. LOL

Someday I'll learn. I've got a mess to clean up today, and I'm 63. See? I haven't learned YET.

I think looking at is depressing and you don't want to deal with it. It's lack of motivation. Most people experience that from time to time. At least you can see that there is a problem there and are trying to figure it out. That's very good!

With myself this type of motivation to do these routine things shows that my depression is active and not just a bad habit. At this time, I am happy to do the basics plus some errands and sort out how well the medication is working.

All I know is that I lack the motivation to concentrate on things so I flow from objective to objective. I have a sense of what you are feeling. (((Tsuki)))

400km is about 250 mi. . . I think . . . all I know is that 1mi = 1.6km. A good 4 hour drive in any event.

It was great to see my parents. Mom and I dove into the mess and got rid of a lot of crap. . . .mucho recycling.

Today is the quest for closet space. I have all sorts of clothes from my various waistline sizes.

Motivation is always an issue. Right now it's just worse because my brain is racing making doing ANYTHING so much harder.

Sometimes I think I need to hire a professional organizer. Or just someone to sit and talk to me while I poke away at the pile or I get distracted.