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#1
I have a Fear of Meds and I really need them helpppp!!!
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I have always thought my goal was to live happily off of meds. I would take meds, start feeling better, and then go off. Inevitably the depression would come back. At first I could go years, as time went on I could only go months and the episodes became worse. The last episode was just over a year ago. It was bad! It threw me back on meds and back into therapy. I have done a lot of therapy with a fair amount of success over the years, but sometimes have to head back.
What I got out of those 6 months in therapy was that I needed to embrace my illness and fully accept that I have it. A big part of that was accepting that my body needs meds to function properly. I am not perfect, but am quite functional on meds. I still have my moments, but not the major life altering episodes that I have off of meds. I'm able to do my job, sleep mostly normally, communicate with those around me. I intend to stay on meds and have no intention of trying to go off again. I'm 42 now and if I have to be on them for the rest of my life I'm okay with that. I read in your other post about why your fear came about, that makes perfect sense! I know people can overcome their fears, but it is hard. Keep reaching out here, and if possible seeking support in real life, so that you can take this next step to feeling better! Good luck to you, and thanks for posting. __________________ dailyhealing "Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
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Thank you for your reply dailyhealing. I have an appt on Weds to start therapy again. Sometimes I feel that if I had someone with me everyday I could trust to help if something happened to me while taking my Med, someone who knows all about me..I live alone and that's apart of the fear. But I will continue to seek help in the mean time.
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You are doing great, and you are more than welcome for writing back. Glad you are seeing a therapist on Wednesday. Even though you can't have a specific person with you each day, this is a place where you can post about your fears and anxieties as needed. Good luck to you!
__________________ dailyhealing "Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
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Well, I have ALWAYS been successful with depression medicatiions. Always. But NOT chronic pain medications. That has been a nightmare. It took 26 years to get proper treatment for that, and that's no lie.
In 1986, I herniated a disc, and the pain was awful. In 1987, I had surgery for it, and it failed. All the doctor would give me was Vicodin. I begged & pleaded for something stronger, but I still got Vicodin. In 1994 I herniated another disc, and in 1995 I had surgery again -- once again it failed. Once again I was put on Vicodin. Once again I begged for something else, as the Sciatica was horrible. That's what i'd been suffering from since 1986. I switched doctors (about time, huh?) and he put me on MS Contin) and that took the edge off as he put on me just 15mg (I think that's what it was - it was the lowest dose). Anyway to make a long story short, I again switched doctors, and today I'm on Opana and Lyrica, and the pain is GONE! If I have a bad day, I still have the sciatica, but it's nothing like it has been. I've only been on it for a couple of months, so it's been a horrible journey! I hope you have a better story than mine! God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee __________________ The truth shall set you free but first it will make you miserable..........................................Garfield |
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after twenty years of being on various drugs, sometimes with horrible side effects, I've finally found something that's working for me. Prozac, 40mg. I've been on the roller coaster of meds working then not working. funny that one of the first drugs that I started with is perfect for me twenty years later. I'm fine with having to be on them the rest of my life. I'm glad you're looking into getting medication and keep an open mind. when you find something that works, you'll be glad you did! take care and keep us posted!
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Carpe Diem
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Remeron, without Remeron I live at the bottom of a very dark well (notice my username) with remeron I have sad days but nothing like the crippling depression that I know will come back if I stop taking it.
We are currently working on the weight issue. One of the biggest complaints with Remeron is weight gain. I've finally stopped gaining not I just need to lose the weight I gained. So far it's worth it. I sleep through the night for the first time in my life. Since I was a child I've always woken up every 2 to 3 hours. I've stopped self-harming (thank you Naltrexone). I definately need to be on meds. |
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I tried many different meds with limited to no success. Then a doc convinced me to try prozac and clonazepam. Success. I have to qualify that by saying I had two very good friends who were absolutely essential to getting me back into life.
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Believe it or not...I actually have prozac, I had the prescription filled months ago its a low dose which is where I wanted to start at...and I'm afraid to take them..I can't explain the panic I feel when I put one to my mouth...its absolutely making me crazy I wish wish wish I can just take the Med...I fear something will happen to me. And I live alone.
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Sometimes I think I have OCD...I obsess on certain things like meds, door being lock, keys on the key holder and not left in the door, I seen I centipede on the wall months ago and for months I look at the walls throughout the day afraid I may see one again, I constantly worried about my 22 year old son, he's a good man, works, have his own apartment ..but I constantly worry about him..I'm a mess.
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