[objtrbit]

Just a rant here...

I freakin got hit upside the head with depression thanks to therapy (which don't get me wrong I'm grateful but jeez).

So I tried wellburtin to compliment my therapy because I was ceasing to function, and I thought I was irritable before but HOLY CRAP. (I really don't want this to turn into whether the meds are right for me...just wondering if anyone went through what I'm about to say below...)

So my rant is this....

It really ****ing sucks that every time I get mad, I either blame the pill or depression, which is not validating to the other person and I am evading responsibility.....or, which is happening to me now, all my arguments are turning into "oh your just upset because of your meds" or "your just irritable because of your depression".

uuurrrrrgghhh!

[Leed]

How long have you been on the Wellbutrin? Hopefully, this is just a side-effect that will ease after awhile. Seems like all doctors use Wellbutrin, and I've heard so many people holler about side effects from that stuff. Why don't doc's use something else, like Cymbalta or something. Jeez.

If this doesn't ease up soon, ask your doc to switch to somethiing else. And for heavens sakes, don't tell people you're on medication. They'll blame everything youj do on your meds. It's no one's business what you're on, ok? So there's no need to tell them. For all they need to know., you don't need anything any more. LOL Hugs, Lee

[objtrbit]

" And for heavens sakes, don't tell people you're on medication."

LMFAO! oh that would help lol; yeah I've only been on wellbutrin for a month, I stopped taking it...my doc doesn't even know that one lol. I really want to try more natural things, like listening to music, inscense, beer...just kidding sort of

[Leed]

Jeepers ~ Didn't you have some pretty severe side efffect from stopping the meds cold-turkey? That was NOT a good thing to do. That can be VERY dangerous as a matter of fact. Depending on how long you were REALLY on the meds, you could have had a seizure, etc. YIKES!

I don't know how successful you're going to be at going au natural, but I wish you luck. Alot depends on how severe your depression is too. If you have severe depression like I do, it's not likely to work.

Keep us posted on how you're doing, will you? I'd really like to know how it goes. You can PM me if you'd like. But I'd like to know how you do. Take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Uprwestsdr]

You shouldn't feel that bad on a medication so I think it's time to call your doctor. Is your doctor a shrink who understands anti-depressants? My doctor started me on Wellbutrin which made me suicidal then added Effexor, which had amazingly good effects.

Regarding the opposite sex, don't tell anyone you have this problem. If you get close to one person after months you can say something. Keep in mind depression scares people, they don't know what to do or say.

[objtrbit]

hi there;

@Uprwestsdr: forchunatly I was only on wellbutrin for a month, with one bad episode in which I had so little energy I couldn't even cut up my steak dinner, and felt utter devastation with no cause....and then I told the doc (which is just a primary doc, not a pdoc) that other then the episode, the wellbutrin was not making me feel any different. So she had me take it twice a day and then boom, I got triggered by some music and it ruined my whole day instead of crying for about and hour then recovering (like my 'normal' depression episodes without meds). I came home from school and almost kicked my cat, I was so angry. Then when I called the doc, I felt like I was going to have a panic attack AND at the same time felt like I had lost a loved one or something.

It was nuts! She told me to go back down to one a day until I could price check strattera...$195 later lol.

Oh and I couldn't hide my irritability from my girlfriend-and I feel a moral obligation to let a person know what they are dealing with...it sure does sting sometimes though. When I told my girlfriend I was having a depressive episode and that I was irritable, her reaction was a sarcastic "wonderful".
She did apologize for it but she doesn't hide at all how I am effecting her.

I can't believe I just typed all this up lol. I don't even know if I have "depression"...I feel more like I'm flatlining then I am "sad". (not to be equated to suicidal thoughts, I am not suicidal). Flat affect. Apathy. Sleep addiction.
Isolating.

I'm a psych student about to go to grad school! I give support, I don't usually get support, this is all so ****ed up and I hate feeling how backwards my life is going. I can't get depression now, are you kidding? bad news never has good timing.

@leed: I think I was also talking to you too above there. You know, I read about the seizures..but you know how when you drink alcohol to get that feeling that you don't care...somehow thats what I felt like when I stopped taking wellbutrin despite the risks...you know, "**** it, it was only for one month" type of thinking. blah lol I still am not suicidal though, just reckless. I'm not really that bad though.

Thank you so much for the support you guys, I feel like such a mess, and like I said, I was the resident ear and shoulder forever, so this feels so disappointing-not that there is anything wrong with getting support, I just can't help but feel like I'm not on the same level as other humans, I'm now like a kid instead of an adult. Damn therapy lol